Can I? :Sander Sides AU

Chapter 2(im so tired)

Literally my fav song. Vid not mine. Enjoy. Tw:Swearing and panic attack.

Virgil's POV

'BEEP' 'BEEP' 'BEEP'.......
I hate alarm clocks.

I slowly got out of bed and took a shower, almost stepping on the pizza from last night. As I was getting dressed, I saw myself in the mirror.
"I am so fucking ugly." Not even kidding. Then I saw the scars covering my arms. Yeah, they're old, but still there. I decided to go down stairs before I have an attack. So Pathetic.
It's 9:00am, and I'm already freaking out, I just know this is going to be a loooonnggg day...... Oh well what's new?

I went down stairs to see Remus just.... Being himself. Dee was just watching like a disappointed mom. It was actually really funny and kinda make me smile for a second. Janus is basically the mom of the darksides, even though he denies it.
"Horrible morning Virgie!!!!!"
"I know it is." I replied honestly. "Aww, is someone grumpy? I can help!" "NO!!!! DON'T!" I fell for that trick once. NEVER AGAIN. "Horrible choice Virgil. Are going to visit the lightsides?" I completely forgot about that. "I mean... I guess..?? I'll head over in an hour or two." The plan. Honestly, I don't know how this will happen. I mean I guess I'll just hang out with them and stuff. Then.... Hurt them? I mean 'gain their respect.'
It's fine. I'll figure it out eventually. Maybe. Later. I think. Hopefully.

Knock, knock, knock.

It's about 11:00am and I'm at the lightsides'. The door opens and I'm met by Logan's face, "Oh, greetings Anxiety. Why are you here?" Well that was kinda rude. Glad I don't live with him. "Glad I'm welcome." I said sarcastically. "Now Logan, don't be rude! Hey kiddo! Come in!!" I walk inside and was immediately hit with the smell of cookies. "I was just baking some cookies, you can have some too." I still don't know he's so happy all the time. Seriously how. "Nah, it's okay Pat, I'm not that hungry."
I walk over to the couch and sit as far away from them as possible. Then I remembered. The plan. I slightly move closer, baby steps. Roman is sitting next to me and Logan is on the armchair. We all sit in a comfortable, yet weird silence while Patton's finishing the cookies. I don't even know what's happening, the tv's playing some happy show and I'm just lost in thought, just thinking about how they do this all day. I mean, they just watch movies and eat snacks EVERYTIME they hang out. Then, I remember something random.
'Wait, THOMAS!!' He had to have given the note to Patton, right?? I have to know-

"Alrighty kiddos!! The cookies are ready!" Fuck. "Hey Pat I'll be right back, ok? I need to do something real quick." "Huh? Umm... Ok Anx. When will you be back?" Patton asked kindly. "Oh, um, like five minutes." I say hurriedly, "Really. Are that rude to not stay, AND lie, just so you don't have to eat a cookie??!" Why is Roman so rude. Such a jerk. "What?! No, I'll be right back. Promise." I sunk out before anything else happened. Wow, I haven't promised in a long time. Not since....... Rose.... Nononono, WHY did I do that?!?! My breathing starts going very uneven....

"You're not going to keep the promise!"

"You'll let him down again."

"Why do always fuck up?!?!"

"She died because of you, you were too late"

I heard a different voice. Who would care about me?

"Hey, Anxiety! Are you okay?? Umm... Calm down, remember what you told me?? Breathe in for four," .... "Hold for seven," ....... "Breathe out for eight,"
........ "Repeat." I succeed with varying amounts. I finally calm down and look up to see........

Cliffhanger. You earned it!!! Pls give feedback. Do you guys want longer a little bit less frequently, or more frequently but shorter chapters. Sorry if there are some typos. Anyway, byeee💚💚💚💚💚💚