Never Be The Same Again - (Editing)

Chapter 5 - Never Be The Same Again

~ ~ Chapter Five ~ ~

 

 

The car ride was silent for a whole of ten minutes as I stared blankly out the window into the night, passing clubs and late night shops with all their bright and colourful lights, until Baden started. He reminded me of Dougy.

"Why the hell are you working in a place like that Leila?" Baden half asked half demanded from the front.

"Does it matter?" I muttered softly.

He groaned in frustration and I begged silently in my head for him to just kill me already, I've tried countless times and failed. Amberly rushed me to hospital when I took the pills, the overdose of speed was just not quite enough to kill me, only enough to mess me up pretty bad, bleeding to death takes a lot longer than I thought it would. I have contemplated about shooting myself but I want to suffer as I die, a quick bullet to the head is not what I wanted.

"Do you know how long I have been trying to find you for? It's like you just disappeared and all along you were here, right under my nose." He was talking out loud now but had caught my attention.

I stared at the side of his face since he was driving and I was sitting behind Jeff in the back, "Why would you look for me?"

He turned and glanced at me, a car horn tooted loudly as headlights shined in at us then he jerked the car sideways a bit, I smacked my head on the window and hissed in pain loudly, the car screeched to a halt and moments later Baden was in the back with me while I held my head.

"I'm sorry, are you okay? Where does it hurt?" he asked quickly as he pulled my hand away and examined my head, I noticed Jeff climbing over to the drivers seat and the car was moving forward once again.

"I'm fine." I muttered. A slight headache maybe but nothing I can't handle.

"So, are you going to tell me how you managed to stay hidden?" he asked, resting his hand on the side of my head still and forcing me to face him.

I stared up at him, but refused to let myself see what I know I saw in him ages ago. It's too late now, we can't go back there.

"No, then I won't be able to do it again."

I didn't even do that much really, well, Amberly helped me a lot. She didn't know why I refused to put anything in my name, I have my fake ID but that only goes so far with certain things, so everything else is in her name, I have no licence, my job pays cash in hand so I'm not even on the books, Amberly got a credit card for me in her name, which I rarely ever use anyway since Marty pays good.

"You plan on leaving me then?"

Looking away I fought against his hand and he let go, not wanting to cause my head any pain, I took a shallow breath, "What do you want from me Baden?"

"I want you, I missed you, I thought about you everyday and wondered how you were doing, how you were coping, you have no idea how infuriating it was to be locked away in a cage when I found out you ran away from home, if only I had been there for you....." he trailed off.

My eyes narrowed, "No." I growled, then looked up at him, "No Baden, you're not doing this to me, not now, you didn't want me back then and you're not having me now. The past is in the past where it belongs, you're not in my future and I won't let you be either." I even shoved at him in a weak attempt to push him away to the other side of the back seat but he didn't budge, he didn't stop me either.

"You're not the same." he whipsered softly.

I snapped.

"You're damn right I'm not the same! You want to know why I left? Because the day I got out of hospital my own mum slapped me across the face and basically said I asked for it! I had to wake up in that crappy hole all alone because no one cared apart from Dougy!