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Madison's POV
I laid in bed next to Justin who was sound asleep.
I slept on my side and spent most of the night staring out the window. Falling asleep seemed impossible this past few days. Seeing the sunrise has become a part of my daily routine.
Nights are horrible for me. Justin lays down and wraps his arms around me, he kisses my cheek, and I wait for him to fall asleep so I can escape his strong grip.
During the day, he lets me have my space. But he doesn't ever leave the house.
I felt Justin moving next to me, so I guess he woke up. I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep to avoid talking to him.
He rolled closer to me and left a kiss on my arm before getting up.
After hours of miserably failing to fall back asleep, I decided that it was time to get up.
I've been avoiding him for a while. We don't talk much, well, I don't talk to him. I just push him away.
I kept cutting myself more, he still hasn't noticed. I haven't told him, I haven't told anyone, I haven't talked to anyone at all.
I haven't been sleeping much either, and my nightmares are back. These days just haven't been good to me. All I do is stay up all night overthinking everything.
"Hey." Justin said as I walked into the kitchen. "You came out of the bedroom."
I gave him a soft smile and stayed quiet.
"You hungry?" He asked. I shook my head and said "I'm fine."
"You sure? I can make you some breakfast if you want." I shook my head, once again. "Okay." He said.
We stood there in an awkward silence, like we didn't know how to be with each other anymore.
"I'm gonna go use the bathroom." I said and walked away.
I walked in the bathroom and locked myself. I let out a deep breath and walked over to the mirror. I looked at myself in disgust. I hated how I looked.
I can't believe I let Justin see me like this. I washed my face and brushed my teeth. I let my hair down from the messy ponytail I've had it in, and brushed it. I put on some concealer over my eye bags and I wanted to switch clothes but then I remembered my scars and decided to stay with the sweatshirt.
I still didn't feel good with myself, but at least I didn't look as bad as before. I sighed and looked in the mirror once again. What am I going to do once I go back downstairs? It's just weird, the environment is tensed between me an Justin. It's just awkward.
I finally got the courage to leave the bathroom and I went back downstairs. This time I didn't see Justin around. I went back to the kitchen and it was empty. I decided to try to eat something so I looked through the fridge. I saw some fruits so I decided on eating some strawberries.
