Let Me

15. I like U

||No One's POV||

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Sitting on the floor her head in her hands. She feels her body shake as she sobs, making Jackson whip his head to face the young girl that he has taken care of since her and her brother were trainees.

"What's wrong Chae?" Jackson says pulling her into a tight hug, rubbing her back to calm her down.

"Oppa, why wasn't I enough? What's wrong with me, why do I feel this way?" Chaerin says choking on her tears, but still asking the questions very quickly not even letting Jackson answer.

Looking down at her hands she watches as they shake in fear, regret. Wishing that she had just pulled away, or looked away. But she couldn't, so why didn't he. It was too much, her thoughts swirled and twisted. Yet all of the commotion in her head all lead to another emotion written song forming.

"Oppa can I write something." Chaerin says, still hiccuping her sobs, trying so hard to calm down.

"Yah, sure here let me just get you a clear tab." Jackson gets up to fix it up for her.

Like that she is off, writing lyrics like they were just in her head already, just flowing. The beat in her head pushing her through. The negative thoughts still coursing through her head.

'Why would he like something so fat and ugly like you. No wonder he ran, pig.'

'If you had just kept to yourself instead of being a pig you wouldn't have scared him away with your face.'

'What if things can't ever go back to the way things were? Did I just lose him as a friend?'

'How do I even explain this to the boys, when I just stop coming around? Why would they even be worried about a fat pig like you, their probably happy that you'll be gone and not bothering them.'

'How was he able to recover so quickly, it's like he didn't even kiss me, then he was off kissing someone else. Oh, ya he doesn't even like you in that way that's why stupid.'

Quickly just in an hour Chae had the song finished, and ready to upload, she was thinking about doing it a bit later, she wasn't sure when.

"Who was it?" Jackson asks calmly looking at the song them pointing at the hickey that littered her pale skin, that looked even more drained of it normal color.

"Chan." She croaked out, voice still raspy from all the crying.

"It's okay bubs, he's an ass. Just forget him." Jackson pulls her into a tight hug patting her head.

Though the hug was comforting, it still reminded her, of how she may never get another one of Chan's hugs that drove her crazy and warmed her heart. Just adding further onto the pain.

"Hey, it's getting late, jump on I'll take you home." Jackson says turning so that Chae could jump on his back.

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The next day.

Chae's voice was back so she decided to record her new song, with the help of Jackson. Quickly putting it all together so that it would be perfect.