Let Me

09. hoodie

||No One's POV||

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Quickly Chae and the Stray Kids boys got closer and closer. Despite the fact that the two parties were from different company, their understanding company owners didn't question it. In fact SM's PD encouraged the group to get together, at times where Chaerin seem to be overworking herself or just over all out of it.

Jinyoung felt great remorse, remembering Keshi and how much he just loved being an idol. Jinyoung had been hesitant about letting him join despite the past but Soo-man saw an opportunity that he thought was best for Keshi and sent him to JYP to debut with a group here. Soo-man never thought that it would turn out like this, he had personally handpicked the boy and his sister to come to his company seeing something in them, knowing it was in their genes. Soo-man felt like they had to become part of the industry. Yet second time was not the charm, no one was really ready for the Japanese-American to join in on the fun. The child was told to "stay in LA and keep eating candy".  It wasn't even like the boy was rude or anything, he just wasn't paper thin, or fair skinned like people were used to seeing on stage he had healthy meat on him and tanned well, not only that but he wasn't even Korean, many wondered how he debuted. From that rumors were spread like wildfire, some believed that he had bribed JYP, some even believed that he JYP was desperate and really needed another member for his group Star. Saying that he had been kicked out of SM for not being good enough, and rude. It wasn't true he was the sweetest child yet no matter what people just thought JYP and SM's statements were just cover up stories. The problem would get increasingly worse as the group became more and more popular. To a point where "fans" would tell him to "Just do us all a favor and leave Star" or even go as far as send death threats to the child. Soo-man and Jinyoung couldn't do anything about the situation since no one had made a real big threat. Who knew the biggest threat to him were people's words, and himself. Yet, the guilty and pain wasn't shared with the two company owners, Jinyoung was the only one who felt this way, for Soo-man it was just another foreigner that he mistreated.

(The mistreatment claims come straight from SM's treatment of their Chinese idols, such as Tao, Kris, Luhan, Renjun, Winwin, ect. Sorry, if you don't agree but the way they were/are treated is distasteful in every way I may not know the full details, but if I see Renjun sulk over not being able to talk about his family one more time. I will write to SM directly. I want to hear about his family Vacation. :'( ) 

||Chaerin's POV||

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I had been out of it all day, I'd just find myself staring at nothing and tuning out everyone. I feel so empty, I just wanted it to stop. It wasn't like I wanted to die exactly, I just wanted a skip for right now and not remember anything I do till it's all better. Like I wanted to be in a coma for a bit, but I also wanted to fight more, and keep going and so that I could witness and remember what I was doing, what I am going through.  

I was deep in thought until I realized that the music in the room had halted, and no one was dancing or instructing. My dance instructor in fact was on the phone with her eyebrows knitted together and her back was to the wall with her hand on her forehead as if she had a headache. I kept looking at her my curiosity seeping out as I tilt my head to see her face better. It was laced with worry, concern, and sadness.

*Knock Knock*

Then bursting in was a Park Jisung drenched with sweat like me, I guess he had just come from practice. He walked over to where I was and inhaled deeply, closing his eyes to compose himself. Then he placed his left hand on his waist then used his right hand to give me a soft flick on my forehead earning a groan from me. He squinted his eyes at me as if he were mad, the crossed his arms then cocked his eyebrow as if to interrogate me.