𝐈 𝐑 𝐎 𝐍 𝐘

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PHOEBE WOULDN'T let me pay for anything we -she bought. It turns out that her dad is a big-time lawyer. A lawyer that works for corporations. Phoebe and I ended our shopping spree with an hour till the party.

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"It's going to be so fun, Val! I'm really glad your coming with me!" Phoebe beams while dumping her bag on my bed. "Wait, is your over night bag in the car?" I nod looking out the window. There wasn't anything particular I was looking at either. My eyes focused on a spot on the dirty white blinds and stayed there. No thoughts, head empty. "Hellooooo?" Phoebes painted fingers snaps in front of me. "Hmm?" I responded. My dark brown eyes didn't leave the spot. What the hell is wrong with me? "Are you going to get changed, or?" I snap myself out of it. "Yeah, yeah, I'm just zoning out." I grab my bags and start getting ready.

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"Hey, should we start hurrying?" I glance down at the time, we were fifteen minutes late. "And be early?" She shook her no, "I wouldn't let us be caught dead being some of the first people to show up." I shrug my shoulders. "Okay." She finished her lip liner. Phoebe's make up was AMAZING. Her outfit was AMAZING. This girl was just plainly awesome. Phoebe had on rose gold, fitted, satin dress on. It was a bit shorter than mine. The back and shoulders were exposed. Her straps were thinner than mine and we're in a bunny ear-shaped knot. It was absolutely beautiful.
"God, your so fucking pretty Phoebe!" I pouted like a child. The body she had was the body I want. I envied her. "NO, YOUR SO PRETTY!" Phoebe jiggles my chest, "I MEAN THESE THINGS ARE A BEAUTY!" I swatted her hands away. I felt slightly uncomfortable.

At a young age I hit a growth spurt, it was the most weird feeling being the only girl who had a visibly larger chest than any other girl in the class. It felt weird, I've had guys look at them and talk about them, girls would point. Some friends back home would just bluntly point out I had large breasts. It felt like that was the only thing someone saw on me. Hearing adults talk about your body that you can't change at a young age, carries with someone. They've been a large insecurity of mine.

Phoebe noticed the changed atmosphere around me. So she changed the subject. "AND THIS FACE!" She cupped my face and kissed the left cheek, "IS SO-" she kissed the other cheek- "DAMN GORGEOUS!" Phoebe hugged me tightly. My arms couldn't come back up to hug her back.

"O...Kay.." I said in between breathes. My rib cage was shrinking and my chest was suffocating me. She let go of me and kissed me on my forehead. "Come on, let's paint your nails." Phoebe pulls my long sleeve and towards me bed. " But Phoebe, I don't have any-" She pulls out a dark glittery gray glass bottle. "Who doesn't have what?" Phoebe grins, she pays the seat next to her in my bed. I nod impressed, "Touché", I comply and sit down. Phoebes face is smug like.

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An hour late to the party, we left my house. In the car my hearts start to beat faster. "Are you sure your suppose to come a hour late?" I was worried and confused. Phoebes replied "Of course!", we turn a corner, "If we come early than, it'd been WEIRD. Trust me." Phoebes black car pulls up by a house that has lights shinning threw the windows. People in the yard, porch, and the backyard. If you looked closely, you could see some of the shadows of body's moving through the brightly lit windows.

My stomach was set ablaze in the inside. My heart was beating faster than before. Phoebe gets out of the car. Slowly I follow suit. Zig-zagging our way through people we approached the door. Phoebe looks back at me with a bright and positive smile. The excited girl starts to knock but before her knuckles can make contact with the black door, it opens. Comes stumbling out in a hurry was a large teenager with dark brown hair, he looked sick. The brown boy covers his mouth with his hand. Once he made it to the stairs, a smaller girl comes flying out in a rush. Her face was worried. "Charlie, wait!" She chases after the boy. Phoebe and I look as she reaches the sickly individual. The brown skinned girl rubs his back.