Lunar dreams and Lucid nightmares.

Chapter 8 Under the mask

Sawyers POV

With a groan of frustration, I rolled over in bed sighing, wide awake without any way of getting to sleep. This was getting way too out of hand. I can't sleep. At first, I was too afraid to sleep and when I do sleep, I get woken up from another nightmare. But not long ago, thanks to Aisha, I've learned that I wasn't the one responsible for my family's death. I've thought that I was responsible for so long it not only kept me from sleeping at night, it filled me with so much self-loathing that it overwhelmed me to the point where there were days when I wanted to kill myself. Tried, but failed in the end. Because I didn't think I deserved any breath of fresh air. I carried this guilt for so long, and now that I've found out that it wasn't my fault I just...don't know what to think or what to feel.

In all honesty I felt relieved. Despite it doesn't change the fact that my family is still dead, it does gives me a sense of relief that I wasn't the one that killed Ruby. However, even if I wasn't the one responsible for my own family's death, I still am responsible for those deaths each shift. It also made me feel angry. Because not only that I failed to protect my family, but whoever that was responsible is still out there and I don't know where he is or if he's still alive. The thought was really unsettling. The thought that he might still be alive and out there somewhere.

And now...I just don't know what to do about it and that made me even angrier. I'm just so angry I could rip someone's head off. Damn it...what should I do? What can I do? My thoughts were running wild and my heart rate sped up. My eyes began glowing bright red as tried to regain my breathing. It was too early for this. I looked to my alarm clock. Only 6:45 AM. It was really too early for this. I needed to calm down as quickly as possible.

Suddenly I heard my phone vibrating on my bedside table and my heart stopped almost instantly. When I reached for the phone it kept vibrating nonstop in my hand. As I wondered who it could be that's texting me at this hour, I turned on the phone to see Aisha's text icon while the phone kept vibrating with each received texts from her.

What in the hell is she doing up in this hour? Seeing she won't stop texting; it was probably urgent. Urgent. And at that moment my mind began racing with thoughts. Urgent, could mean she's in danger. I threw off my blanket and called her instead. My heart racing with fear and kept growing worse with each second passed as the phone kept dialing.

I cursed lowly under my breath as the dialing sound kept ringing in one ear repeatedly.

"Damn it, Aisha, pick up the phone," I silently begged, mentally repeating the same sentence over and over again in my mind.

"Sawyer?" she replied, making me relax just a bit.

"Hey, are you okay? Is everything alright? Are you hurt?" I asked, which might seem like a bit much, but did I care...of course not.

"Calm down. I'm doing fine," she replied, making me sigh in relief. I hear a soft giggle on the other side of the phone, making me blush slightly. Okay, I guess she heard that.

"If you're okay, why the countless texts so early in the morning?"

"We're calling in a meeting at my place. Jesse is already here," she replied. I groaned, but reluctantly rolled out of bed. What was it she wanted to talk about so early in the morning? Must be very important.

"Alright, I'll be right there in 5," I replied before I end the call.

15 minutes later when I actually supposed to be here sooner, I arrived at Aisha's apartment building. I didn't need her to tell me where her apartment building was. I just followed her scent back to where its strongest, which led me to room number 333.

I rolled my eyes with a sigh as I was firstly greeted with a snarky comment from Maya. "Well look who finally showed up. You'd think the werewolf would get here any sooner than the regular human beings," she rolled her eyes, making my left eye twitch at her snarky comment.