Capture The Moments

CHAPTER 6

"Dad,"He himself is shocked. Kasi siguro bigla ko siyang pinansin?

"J-jennie,"Garagal na ang boses niya, I can't think properly. I am hurting my Dad right now. I am hurting my own father. The one who raised and lifted me.

"I'm s-so s-sorry, Dad. I'm really s-sorry,"I run into him and pulled him for an embrace. Kakainin ko din pala ang mga sinabi ko. I can never resist my father. I am too soft to resist him, because no matter how many mistake he'll commit, I am still ready to accept him wholeheartedly because he's, he's very important to me. I lost my Mom, I can't lose my Dad too.

"Shhhhh, its n-not y-your fault baby, it was daddy's fault. Y-you d-don't h-have to b-be s-sorry,"He gently cupped my face and caress my hair.

"I should listen to your rationale Dad! B-but I didn't, i-if I f-failed a-as y-your d-daughter I'm s-sorry,"I burst out. I left him without even hearing his sides and letting him to forfend himself. Siguro dahil nasaktan ako ng sobra. Pero sino bang hindi? Sino bang hindi masasaktan kapag nalaman mo na niloko yung sarili mong nanay?

Who wouldn't get hurt if your father confessed to you that he fooled your mother, my mom, she was the one and only reason why am I here in this world, in the Earth.

Pero may nakalimutan pala ako. I was so puzzled. Flummoxed, that I also forgot that I am also nothing without the helped of my father, without his love I am cipher. Na-carried away lang siguro ako. Hindi maabsorb ng utak ko kaya siguro nasaktan ko ang Daddy ko. I hurt him emotionally. I made him feel that he's the most cruel person I've ever seen in my whole life.

"I-i fooled y-your M-mom b-because of t-the d-deal, J-jennie. I have loved Mathilda for God knows how long, for God knows how hard is it for me before to move on and continue my journey. I am v-very much eager and determined to fulfill the deal we had,"

".....I used Meredith, the woman who accepted me despite the flaws and sin I've commited. I u-used the t-he woman w-ho s-stayed with me for such a long time, a woman with her words. S-she remained loyal, even if I she knew that I c-cannot do the same. B-but s-still she loved me unconditionally,"

"F-from the very start. S-she knew that I'm just using her, that she's my keys. B-but then she willingly gave herself to me. B-but believe me Jennie. I learned to love her. I learned to love her but not the way I had loved Mathilda but in a different way,"

"It took me a long time to loved her back, because I was blinded by Mathilda's love. Even if I knew that she's happy with Lucas, I didn't stop admiring her, I didn't stop dreaming. Siguro ganoon kasi talaga pag nagmahal ka, you are ready to fight and sacrifice for the person you love. You can't stop yourself from fighting and sacrificing kasi yung puso natin ang may gusto 'non,"

"A-and I'm the one who f-failed a-as a f-ather a-and a h-husband,"I hugged him even more, kapag siguro sa akin nangyari iyon eh iyon din ang gagawin ko. Of course I won't easily give up without a fight.

"B-but believe m-me J-jennie, I am really s-sorry for what I've d-done, humingi na ako ng kapatawaran kay Meredith, sa mommy mo. And I'll make s-sure t-hat I'm g-gonna change, for good. Hindi kasi puwedeng manatili ako na ganito, kailangang umusad para maabot ang mga gusto mo mangayari at walang mangyayari kapag ganito ako Jennie, I want to change for our f-family, and f-for Meredith, I'll make her proud, n-not w-with my words but because of my actions,"I cried and cried. My father wants to build our new family again, matured, and strong enough to withstand the problems, obstacles we'll face.

Kapag nadapa ka, you should learn how to stand up again, hindi pwedeng manatili ka kung saan ka bumagsak. Even if you stumble and stumble, you should stand up again, and let the world stare at you in awe. With amusement in their eyes saying how proud they are to you. Because you survived. Having no one but yourself.