The Mukband

Chapter 17

"Let's end this friendship." Lover said while looking straight into my eyes.

A tear suddenly slides through my cheeks. I want to say something. I want to stop him but my lips won't move.

What is this? Why is this happening? Did I do something wrong?

Am I really too aggressive about everything?

"Mommy, mommy wake up! May naghihintay sayo sa ibaba." Nagising ako mula sa pang yuyugyog ni Leon sa balikat ko.

Umupo ako mula sa pagkakahiga at palihim kong pinunasan ang mga luha sa aking mata. I dreamt about it again. What does that mean?

"Sino?" I asked.

"Ardin daw po ang pangalan niya." He answered.

Dahil sa narinig ko ay agad akong tumakbo papunta sa shower room. "Tell him to wait, mag aayos lang ako!"

"Opo."

May usapan nga pala kami ngayon na dapat ay magkikita kami sa town.

He wants to tell me more and I said yes but I really planned to ditch him. Kaso hindi ko naman inaasahan na susunduin niya ako mismo dito sa bahay.

Nagsuot lamang ako ng simpleng t-shirt at jeans tsaka nagtali ng jacket sa bewang ko. Pagkababa ko ay nakita ko agad siya. Naka all black ulit ito.

"Hindi mo naman ako dapat sunduin." I said.

"Alam kong hindi ka sisipot." He said and I rolled my eyes.

Alam niya. Alam nanaman niya lahat.

"Tara na." I said as I dragged him outside the house.

Agad kaming sumakay sa isang taxi nang mayroong kaming mamataan na isa. Naging tahimik lamang kami hanggang sa malapit na kami sa mismong town.

"Traffic." Inis na sabi ko.

"That's life." He said.

"Yeah."

"In this life journey, traffic will always exist so you have to be persistent until you reach your destination. Do not let the traffic stop you from trusting, instead accept it in your life because it will teach you faithfulness."

"Anong pinagsasabi mo?" I asked.

"Let God be the driver of your life. Trust Him even if the road you're taking isn't the road you're expecting." His eyes were gleaming. "Huwag mo na kasing agawin kay God yung manibela. Mababangga ka lang."

Nang makababa kami ay siya na ang nagbayad. Dinala naman niya ako kaagad sa isang fast food restaurant and to my surprise, nilibre din niya ako.

"Are you okay now?" He asked.

"Oo." I simply said.

"Are you still bothered about something?" He asked.

I'm afraid to spill one more thing to him. Lahat nalang kasi ay nasasagot niya. Ayoko pa. Hindi pa ako ready Lord.

"Why are you doing this?" I never asked him for this.

He flashed a smile. "Because of Love."

Napangiwi naman ako sa sinabi niya. May gusto ba ito saakin? Ardin is sure intelligent, handsome, neat and talented but my heart beats for my best friend.

Si Lover ang gusto ko kahit na madalas siyang dugyutin, childish at papansin. Kahit na siya pa ang maging pinaka nakaka-inis na lalaki sa buong mundo, siya parin ang pipiliin ko.

He chuckled. "I love you as a person and as a future sister in Christ. I can feel it, you'll be serving Him one day."

Oh.