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unedited bitCHES. third person of view who? i like it mixed 😌🤘also, joon will have a panic attack.

warning : mentions of noncon sexual activity, physical and verbal abuse, some degrading words too such slut and whore, and suicidal thoughts.in conclusion, deep angst :D

if you're uncomfortable you can skip that part, i will put a huge space and sign
'『卍卍卍卍卍』' to tell you if it's that part already!!

Jimin rushed outside, struggling with
the foods he's holding in his small
rather hands. He quickly wandered his
eyes looking for a vehicle to ride.
He was sweating profusely even though
it was very cold out in the busy streets. He
looked once again at Namjoon,
who was panting and blinking very quick.
His red colored face was indicating
jimin that he was indeed having
a panic attack.

Third person's point of view

He was alone again in their apartment. It was eerie quiet, all the male can hear is clock ticking, drizzling of the rain on the window, and my shallow breathe. The said latter was waiting for his partner to come back from god knows where. While waiting for his 'boyfriend' Namjoon finds himself in deep thoughts. Same scenario at his home.

A small boy rubs slowly his puffy and red eyes. He was alone in his semi-dark room. His only light was the moonlight that cuts through the transparent window. He sniffs and curls into a ball on his petite and creaky bed. It was late for a young boy like him.

He was waiting for his parents to come back home. They weren't always there it didn't change the fact when they were there since they mostly give their attention to the youngest offspring. He would be ignored as the usual. Let's just say he would prefer it that way than the harsh words and frowns of them. His parents were not really fond of him. In fact, he was the reason why his mother was disowned by his grandparents.

Long story short. When his parents were in their early twenties, they were very horny and not careful leading to 'an accident' . And of course being immature and emotional that time, they blamed the baby in which unfortunately was Kim Namjoon.

To his young parent's eyes he was the very reason of the misfortune of their life.

A reason his parents were disowned.

A reason his parents suffered.

A reason his parents had to end their fun youth and work.

A reason his parents are ashamed.

So being young and innocent namjoon is, he took the blame. The poor child's heart took all of his parents anger and fury. They were verbal and physical. Even though he can't feel literally the verbal one, they hurt the most. He just couldn't comprehend why his other brother wasn't hated like him.

Don't take him wrong.

His mind was confused because his parents didn't give the same treatment. He wanted to be loved too. He doesn't really know what does 'love' mean but his heart yearns for it. Imagine a 6 years old enduring those punishments for the blames he didn't even do. All those harsh words and mistreatment. He didn't know how and why he survived those years. He remembers that he almost died in his own war.