＊˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ [ yeji — • ] ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊
naglalakad ako sa hallway ng building namin habang hawak lahat ng requirements ng iba pa naming teachers. kakatapos lang ng practice para sa musical play na gagawin namin and i want to be home early to get some rest.
nang may makasalubong ako.
"hi hwangsungit. long time no talk." he looked at me playfully and i felt my heart's beating fast again. nagtataka ko lang siyang tiningnan.
"'wag mo naman akong tingnan ng ganyan. pwede ba tayong lumabas? kahit saglit lang. i just want to talk to you." he slowly said na parang nag-aalinlangan. matagal ko na rin siyang iniiwasan kaya siguro ito na yung panahon para hindi ko na siya takbuhan. "sige pero saglit lang ha. i want to take a rest."
"of course." paninigurado niya.
sumakay kami ng motor niya. hindi ko pa rin alam kung saan niya ba ako balak dalhin. huminto kami sa may isang park na puno ng mga ilaw. kaunti lang yung mga tao dahil siguro hapon pa lang. medyo malamig din kasi tabi ito ng dagat.
"yeji." nabasag ang pagmumuni-muni ko nang bigla niya akong tawagin. if only he knew how i miss him calling my name, how i miss our late night talks and how i miss him.
"can you tell me what you want to say?" i asked.
"i'm really sorry about what happened. i didn't mean to hurt you. my feelings for you are real. i mean it." sabi niya. umupo ako sa isang bench at siya rin naman.
"i'm no expert about love. i don't know everything about it because it's my first time... but for me, you should've been honest to me. the first thing that i deserve is your honesty, yeonjun." sabi ko habang pinipigilan kong umiyak. the last time i cried about him is when i told my friends everything that happened. i never cried about him after. it's because i want to remember him as a good memory.
a memory that made me really happy.
"nagkamali ako... big time. kaya i would understand if you cannot forgive me—"
"i've already forgiven you, yeonjun. the moment i confessed to you, napatawad na kita."
"yeji." sambit niya. i looked at him and it broke my heart because he's crying. ayoko ngang umiyak eh!
"but please, forgive me too. i can't forget what you've done." bakas ang pagkagulat sa mukha niya. "i'm sorry. i don't think there'll be a chance for us again."
umiwas na ako ng tingin dahil parang kinikirot na ang puso ko. i've already decided it. i couldn't take any lies anymore. "we could be friends. but i don't think i can give you anything more than that." i said. it's hard to say these things because i know i don't mean it. i wanted us to be something more.
i suddenly realized that i am crying too. tears are falling in both of our cheeks. hindi na rin nagsalita pa si yeonjun.
he came closer to me slowly and then pulled me into a hug. it took a while for me to come back to my senses and after, i hugged him back. "choipanget." sabi ko pero lalo pang lumakas yung iyak niya.
"stop crying. lalo kang papangit niyan eh." bulong ko habang tinatapik yung likod niya pero bumulong siya pabalik na ikinagulat ko.
"i'm sorry for everything i've caused you, hwang. don't worry, hindi na ako mangungulit pa. please take care of yourself. i love you."
BINABASA MO ANG
YOU BELONG WITH ME
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