Lost

Chapter 35

Chris POV:

As the door opened and I entered I hear familiar screams. A lump formed in my throat and I turned around the corner to see her on her bed being fixed with belts to her bed and her face red from screaming „Help me!" Tears formed in my eyes and the doctors noticed me and looked at me „Are you her boyfriend?" „Uhm... y-yea." „Maybe you can talk to her. She tried to escape and we caught her in the last minute." I nod and go over to her bed „Jes baby." I say in a soft voice and sit down next to her. With tears streaming down her face she looks desperately and vulnerably at me. Whimpering she stutters „Help me Chris. I need to get out of here." „Baba I know. I wish I could help you." I see her lip trembling and new tears falling from her eyes „Then help me." „Baby I can't do anything." I bite my lip to not cry. I see her face turning cold and staring dead into my eyes „So? You happy now? I'm here just so you don't have to handle me at home? Great thanks. Now I know what I'm worth. Fuck off! Go away I don't ever wanna see you again!" „Jes no baby..." „Stop with faking that you care okay? It hurts me knowing you only pretend to care." „Jesy what are you talking about? I do fucking care about you. You don't have any idea of how much I miss you. I fucking took your hoodie to Kem because I can't stand sleeping alone in your house without you and when I hug your hoodie it feels like you're there so don't say I pretend to care." „Chris...I..." I get up, drop the flowers and go outside on the floor. I hear her faint sobs but have to sit down for a moment to process what just happened. I drop on the chair infront of her door and rest my head in my hands. I calm down a little and get back inside. I see her face light up immediately as her desperate and fragile gaze meets mine. I see the doctors removed the belts and she jumps into my arms sobbing into my chest „Chris I'm so so sorry baby I was out of my mind I didn't mean to hurt you." I hold her tightly and bury my face in her neck and carry us to her bed, sitting down and stroking her back „Shhh." I feel her calm down and I lift my head up to see her nurse smiling and giving me a thankful glare. She lifts her head up looking up at me. Her face a little sweaty and some loose hair clinging to her forehead. I wipe her tears and give her a kiss „We'll get through this okay." I see her nod and she blows her nose. I put the hair from her face and rub her back „Chris I'll never hate you." „Baby I know... it's okay." I softly kiss her temple and rock her a little when I see Leigh, Jade and Perrie enter with smiles on their faces „Hey Jes." Her head shoots up „Girls!" She gets up and hugs them tightly. After the cuddling session she sits on my lap and I immediately wrap my arms around her waist „So...any news?" They look at each other and smile „Funny you're asking that..." Leigh holds up her hand when I see a ring on the finger „Andre proposed to me today." She tears up and the other three squeal and hug her „Congratulations oh my god finally he did it." I smile and look down at Jesy, seeing her tear up, too „Baba what's wrong?" I turn her around so she faces me „Baby I'm so happy for Leigh. For once my tears are happy tears." Ouch that hurted...happy tears for once... hm...I smile weakly and turn her back around „My first kid is growing up." she sighs and I bury my face in her neck to inhale her wonderful flowery scent as much as I can before I have to let her go again. The whole hour we sit there and chat and Perrie was way too excited for the wedding because she kept jumping around and making plans already, which is kinda adorable about her. The hour flew past way too quickly as the nurse comes in „Right the visiting time is over now. Please say goodbye." I look at Jesy and know what's gonna come. She clings onto me again and I immediately rub her back „Baba I promise I'll come back tomorrow. Just like I promised you today. With the girls." I look at them and they nod smiling „We can also bring a film and watch it." Perrie suggests. I see Jesy wipe her tears and nod „Y-yea." „Yea? You wanna do that?" She nods and hugs them goodbye before coming to me and giving me a passionate kiss, but pulling away way too soon as Jade clears her throat and giggles. She rolls her eyes and gives me one last squeeze and sits down on the bed and immediately hugging the bear I gave her. I smile „Bye bye." she says in her baby voice and we exit the room, walking outside into the pouring rain „You girls need a lift?" „No thanks. Leigh drove us here. And we're all alive." „Hey!" We laugh and say goodbye to each other. In the car I, again, turn the radio on and ‚Secret love song' comes on. The songs hits different when you're alone and driving through the rain. I silently hum along and reach Kems property. The door unlocks catching his attention immediately „Hey mate." „Hey." I hang the keys on the board and slip off my jacket and shoes and sit down on the sofa „How was it?" He hands me a glass of coke and I tell him a bit. We kept chatting, had dinner later on and watched some tv. I'm now laying in bed, hugging her hoodie, listening to the rain outside, as I slowly drift off to sleep...

I woke up this morning to 25 missed calls from my ibf and I was like: tf is going on and she said: go on insta rn! So I checked my insta and the first thing I saw: OUR BABY LEIGH LEIGH IS ENGAGED! SHE WILL BE A MRS GRAY! HE FINALLY POPPED THE QUESTION AND I'M BURSTING WITH HAPPINESS HSKSPWMDNEIWJ THEY BLOODY DESERVE IT😍😍😍😭😭😭😭😭😭😭