ALL ABOUT BAKING, ALL ABOUT YOU.

CHAPTER 45 - If only.

Para sa mga taong bitter, single, broken hearted, SMP at lahat na. magsama sama tayo. magsama sama tayong maniwalang walang forever! hahahahha! *cheers!!*

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Janelle's POV

True love is Sacrifice.. Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself. Love is selfless, not selfish.

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For those I love, I will sacrifice...

Sacrifice... the magic word. the anwer to all my problems..

for my cousin whom I love the most, for your happiness. I will sacrifice..

to my love who changed my life, Anne, forgive me. but I think this is what best for you for I can't fight for you. I can't even fight for myself. I can't even fight for the truth. you're so kind. you're so sweet. you're so perfect. everything that I want. pero wala man lang akong magawa para sayo. hindi ko man lang magawang maging matapang para sayo. I don't deserve you. you don't deserve all of these.

I'm letting you go. hahanap muna ako nang lakas nang luob para ipaglaban ka. at para aminin sa lahat kung ano ba talaga ako. at kung ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman ko. at babawiin kita. and maybe someday, kung ako parin. babawiin kita. no matter what it takes. but for now. I will sacrifice. for my sick cousin and for your true happiness.

Sometimes, you have to give up.. For you to grow up.

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naggising ako sa sikat nang araw. hindi ko rin alam kung papaano ako nakauwi kagabi sa kalasingan ko. parang ayokong bumangaon. gusto ko nalang sa kwarto ko at magtago. hide myself from reality. I want to escape all of my problems. I want to escape all of my fears. I want to escape the reality. I want to escape the future. most of all, I want to escape my life.