scruffle wuffle but make it better

chapter eleven

i hesitate before getting up out of my bed. i slowly walk down the stairs as i see a familiar face. one that i didn't want to see...hayden.
h-"amber please just listen i know you don't want to see me but you need to listen to me."
my mind races i'm not sure if i want to run back up the stairs or hear him out. i'm only halfway down i could run back up i glance at my door.
h- "please don't run away"
damn it he knows me to well  i sigh
a-"fine. five minutes that's it"
we walk outside and sit on the patio porch swing
h-"um how have you been."
a-"hayden don't fucken make small talk with me what do you want"
he sucks in a sharp breathe clearly in shock of how direct i'm being
h-"um ok well i don't really know how to tell you this" he mutters
i glare at him
a-"just say it"
h-"well i heard from my buddy mason who's on the erm football team he's a really good guy actually i met him last year at-"
a-"hayden is this going somewhere or are you just wasting my time" i interrupt
h-"um yea sorry it's just"
he stops before looking down
a-"what ?"
h-"will you look away from me when i say this i i um really don't want to see your face when i tell you."
i slowly turn to face my back towards him
h-"uh thanks"
a-"yea what is it now"
h-"well you see he told me about this game all the football players have and well they wrote down some girls names and randomly drew one. they have a chart and basically it's a big bet to see who can get farthest with they girl they chose.
a-"i don't understand" i day my face growing hot
h-"kevin he got you. it's just a big part of some stupid football game i'm so sorry"
tears form in my eyes and i push them away
a-"you can't let me have anything can you?"
h-"wwwhat ?" he stutters
a-"the second i get a boyfriend who treats me right you have to come in and tell me lies. am i not allowed to be happy anymore ?" i practically scream at him
h-"amber i'm not lying i wish i was"
a-"why should i believe you huh? you don't believe me ever."
h-"what are you talking about amber" he looks at the ground again
a-"you don't believe me when i tell you that your terrible girlfriend winter is a bitch and was completely rude to me you think it's my fault."
h-"amber i- i don't know what happened but she's my girlfriend what am i supposed to do.
a-"and kevin's my boyfriend hayden." he looks up at me and reaches for my hand. i yank away tears forming in my eyes this time i can't get rid of them and they rush down my face
a-"go i want you to go now." i say sharply
hayden turns away from me and slowly walks away.
i burst into the house bawling. i run into my room and shut the door before slowly sliding my back down my head in my hands could he be right?