Square One

Chapter 2

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CHAPTER 2 –

"Destiny has two ways of crushing us..." Henri Frederic Amiel said, "by refusing our wishes...and by fulfilling them."

But what was my destiny then? When it neither refused my wishes nor fulfilled them, it just crushed me like that. No reason needed. What does that say about where my life's going? Is it going anywhere or just leading me into another one of its deadly traps that will ruin me for good? I stared down at the road ahead of me, defiantly another trap.

I walked the familiar path I walked two years ago. From the same house, to the same school. Never would I have imagined coming back to the place where my life began turning into complete hell. 'I can’t wait to get out of here' I remembered saying, so happy to be leaving back then. It was about a 15 minute walk and my time was nearly up. The constant tap of my shoes hitting the pavement was the only sound I could hear, apart from a random bird squawking once in a while. The wind rustled in the drooping trees and through the freshly cut grass. It was really quiet, like in horror movies where you’re walking alone, it’s all peaceful yet eerie at the same time, until something just jumps out at you, except the only difference is that I expected it.

I came face to face with the large path way that leads into the school. The familiar chatter and gossip filling my ears, and a fresh new buzz filling the air with the excitement and nervousness of starting school again after the holidays.

I used to get this feeling, except now I had no friends that I could share it with. I couldn’t afford friends here though; they’d just end up getting hurt. After leaving this school two years ago, I lost trust in everyone, now after what happened I also lost the ability to love. What was left of me? What type of friend would I be? Why am I even here, even alive, and even thinking the thought of having friends? Everyone hates me here, two years or twenty, they will always hate me.

There were girls chatting up guys and teachers with papers everywhere, I was outside now slipping into the school unnoticed. Thank goodness for uniforms. The sun was burning into the grass and the hot summer breeze was gliding though out the school along with the wind. I suddenly felt exposed as the mixture burned into the bare skin of my legs. I’d usually love summer, but the amount of light peeking in through the non-existent clouds made my presence more visible. And that’s really the last thing I needed right now. I didn’t want it to start now.

I tried avoiding looking into people’s eyes while I made my way up to the office. They wouldn’t recognise me would they? It’s been two years. I walked into the front entrance of the building and made my way through the empty corridors, pale floors and light grey lockers. I passed by another set of lockers and couldn’t help but over hear some people talking. I knew I shouldn’t have been listening, not with everything that happened back then. It was a dangerous game, but it was just another one of my bad habits, it had to stop. I didn’t need to know what they were talking about as soon as I heard her voice, it was obvious, I hadn’t even gotten into class and they already started.

“Why would she be back? Hasn’t she had enough of her life here?” The snotty voice spoke. I would recognise that voice from anywhere. None other but the Vanessa K.Her ugly voice echoed in my head, making me want to puke.

I started to walk away until I heard the deep voice of Jonah. I stopped in my tracks and froze, all the memories flashing through my mind causing yet another mental breakdown. I can’t believe I was that naive, that I believed he wasn’t a part of this. It was all his plan, all along. He was the mastermind of it, and I feel like a fool, believing everything he said, falling for him, falling for him hard. And when I had to get back up on my feet, which took way longer than it should have, I lost it all, trust, love and altogether my happiness.