never gonna happen||apply fic

chapter four: wrong girl

lani's pov:
bella and i were debating on whether or not cereal is soup, when i felt a sharp tap on my shoulder.

i looked around and saw annie, looking horrified.

"what?" i asked her. did i have something in my teeth?

"sean is staring at you." she whispered.

"who the hell is sean?" i asked.

"the guy bella likes. aka him." she jabbed her fork in the direction of a guy with blonde hair and bright brown eyes.

he grinned at me. i smiled back.

"what the hell are you doing?" annie whisper-yelled.
"nothing! i just returned the smile!" i defended myself.
annie shook her head in annoyance.
then i realized what i had done.

luckily, bella was too busy eating to have noticed the affair.

hold up, i worded that wrong. the..friendly exchange of smiles? yeah, let's go with that.

all throughout dinner, i felt guilty. i couldn't tell bella, or it would crush her heart.

i couldn't get any sleep that night, and the next morning i looked like a mess. hopefully sean will notice and snap out of it.

i tried to convince myself to that maybe sean wasn't staring at me in that way. maybe i did have food stuck in my teeth. and the smile. i mean, if i was silently judging someone for having food stuck in their teeth, and they noticed me, i would give them an awkard smile too.

i went downstairs for breakfast. bella was talking to me, but i gave her short answers and didn't look her in the eye.

"lani, is everything okay?" she asked.

"peachy!"  i said, a little too loudly.

i was making my way to transfiguration when aren cornered me.

"okay, what the hell is going on?" she asked.

"i don't know what you're talking about, aren." i said, suddenly becoming very interested in the suit of armor next to me.

"you've been acting strange ever since last night. explain." she said, and her tone made it perfectly clear hat i was not getting out of this that easily.

i took a deep breathe and told her everything.

"well, i think that you should tell bella what happened and make it clear that you aren't interested in sean. you aren't, right?" she asked me, her eyebrow raised and one hand on her hip.

"yup! i totally am not at all interested in him. like, at all." i said, nodding my head.

"good." aren said and she finally let me go. i ended up being ten minutes late for transfiguration and lost ten points. hmm, maybe aren had purposefully held me back to get gryffindor out of the running for the house championship..

i was about to tell bella what happened as soon as the class ended, but when i stepped outside of the class, i saw something that horrified me.

it was joey, and he was kissing some third year. kissing isn't the right word. he was snogging her.

tears immediately found their way into my seeing holes and i mumbled that i was going to the bathroom, and ran the opposite way. i stopped running when i had reached the edge of the black lake. i collapsed on the grass and started crying. a few moments later, someone sat beside me. great. i probably looked like an idiot.

then i noticed that that "someone" was sean.

could this day get any worse?

don't answer that.

"you wanna talk about it?" he asked.

"no." i said. a few moments passed, then i turned to him.
"i just saw my crush snogging someone else." i choked out.

saying that made it ten times worse and i broke down. sean opened his arms for a hug and for some reason i accepted it. i know it was the wrong thing to do, but i couldn't help it. i was vulnerable at the time.

i released him and he looked at me.
"are you feeling better?" he asked.
i nodded. "a little. thanks sean." i said.
he nodded and wiped the tears from my face. he leaned closer and whispered, "did i ever mention that you're beautiful?" and then kissed me. i kissed him back, not realizing what i was doing, but then i snapped into my senses.

i pulled away from him. he looked hurt. "i'm sorry sean, but i don't like you like that. you're a really sweet guy, but i just can't be with you." i said.

a look of sadness took over his face, but he nodded. "i understand."
"thank you." i hugged him.
but then i heard something. a plate crashed. we both turned our heads and saw that annie, aren and mavis stood a few feet away, their mouths wide open in shock and bella was running up to the castle.

"uh oh." i said, before chasing after her.

✧･ﾟ: *

bella's pov
lani didn't show up to charms, so we told professor flitwick that she was ill. she seemed off in the morning too, but i just thought it was that time of month.

we decided to look for her. she wasn't in the bathroom or the dorms. some third year said that they saw her running across the grounds. we brought down a plate of croissants, sausages and bacon for her, since she barely at any breakfast.

we were making our way to the grounds.
"oh look, she's sitting by the black lake." aren pointed out.

"is that..sean?" mavis said.
and sure enough, it was sean. lani started crying into his shoulder. i stood there, paralyzed. this must be some kind of joke.

then, she released him. he wiped a tear from her face and leaned in. he whispered something, before kissing her. and she kissed him back! but after a few seconds that lasted an eternity, she backed away. i didn't bother to see what happened next. the plate i was holding smashed on the ground and i ran upstairs to my dorm. lani chases after me.

i collapsed on my bed. lani came in and panted.
"bella- i can- explain." she said, panting for breathe.
she crouched over, one hand to her chest and one hand signaling for me to give her a minute. wow she is so out of shape.

when she finally regained herself, she sat at the edge of my bed.

"what." i said in a harsh tone.
"look, it was not what you thought it was. annie caught sean staring at me last night. he grinned at me and i smiled back, not thinking much of it, but then i realized what i had done. i felt really guilty. i was going to tell you but then i saw joey snogging some girl. i ran to the lake and cried. sean comforted me, and i cried on his shoulder. once again, i didn't think much of it. then he whispered to me that i was beautiful and kissed me. i forgot what i was doing and kissed him back, but then i pulled away and told him that i didn't like him like that. i'm really sorry bella." she said.

all of this hurt me even more, but i nodded. at least my friend was honest about what happened.

"do you forgive me?" she asked.
i thought about it.
"yes." i said, before pulling her into a hug.

just then the door smashed open.
it was annie, arena and mavis. they were all out of breathe.

"oh, you guys made up. now WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED?!?" annie screamed.

bella and i looked at eachother and began to tell them the whole story.

a/n:
i didn't proof read so sorry if there are any mistakes
word count:
1274