It's My Life

Chapter 1

"I can't do it anymore, Elena! I can't pretend like it isn't killing me that one of my best friends is dead, and I can't do anything about it!" I cried out in frustration.

"Caroline, it's hard for me too! All that means is that we have to try harder!" Elena said shocked, and angry.

"You're right. You got Damon back, but you erased your memories when I said you shouldn't! The whole summer I tried to bring them back, while you went on a witchy blood binge!" I said exasperated while throwing my arms in the air.

"I know, and I'm sorry, but there's nothing I can do to make that up. So, I'm going to bring her back, and try to apologize. I would like it if you would be there to help bring her back." Elena said sad, and unsure.

"I'm going back to the dorms." I whispered as I ran away from her. I unlocked the door to our room, and locked the door, then plopped down on my bed staring at the ceiling. I sighed, running around the room packing my belongings. After twenty minutes I had everything of mine packed, as I looked around the room. I had one box left which had my pictures, and old memorable items from the gang. I picked up the box walking out of the room, and locking the door behind me. I walked to my car as fast as I could without trying to bring suspicion to myself, and I sat the last box in the back of my silver dodge charger.

"Going somewhere, Goldilocks?" I heard Enzo say behind me. I silently cursed and turned towards him faking a smile.

"Hey, Enzo!" I said faking cheerfulness.

"Avoiding the question?" He asked raising his eyebrow.

"No." I huffed crossing my arms.

"Then answer the question." He mocked smirking.

"I'm leaving." I said.

"Obviously, but where?" He chuckled.

"I don't know." I said annoyed.

"Oh, come on, and I thought we were friends." He said chuckling while he looked hurt, secretly of course.

"We are. I just need to start over." I sighed.

"Just a guess, but Elena doesn't know does she?" He asked his eyes big as he looked at me smugly.

"No, only you." I said.

"Were you going to tell me?" He asked.

"I wasn't planning on it, until I was away from here." I said. Then had a witch do a cloaking spell. I wanted to say.

"Well, I see what friendship means to you." He said angry.

"Enzo, you don't understand." I tried to reason.

"What don't I understand!? That you were planing on leaving and not telling anyone? Yes, I understand Elena. She upset you, but me! I was with you while we both grieved . I would think, that you would be decent enough to tell me you were going to leave!" He laughed shaking his head.

"I wanted to!" I said trying not to cry, but coming close to failing.

"Then why didn't you!?" He asked angry.

"I didn't want you to try, and talk me out of it!" I yelled.

"Try and talk you out of it? Fine. Just give me one good reason that you're doing this." He said. His anger was evident, but I knew he was only using his anger to cover up the hurt.

"I need a new start. I can't pretend that losing everyone I care for is okay! Elena isn't herself! Bonnie's gone! Matt and Jeremy are in Mystic Falls, with my Mom, where I can't be! Stefan's gone, being his jerk self! I even miss Damon, and his snarky comments!" I huffed out angry, annoyed, hurt, sad, and above all lost.

"It will always be like that, Caroline. You are a vampire now. You will out live your love ones." He said.

"I know." I said sadly.

"But, if you ever decide you want to come back, or you want to see my handsome face, just call me. I'll always be there." He said saying 'handsome' with a smirk on his face making me laugh and smile.

"I know and I will. I promise. If Elena does end up asking you questions. Just tell her I said, I don't want to be found and if I do. I'll call you." I said pointedly.

"Damon was right." He laughed, and I elbowed him laughing.

"I'll miss you and your fierceness, Caroline. Anything you'll miss about me?" He asked laughing as we hugged goodbye.

"I'll miss how you were there for me, even when my closest friends weren't. How you would make me laugh when I cried. Or, how you were able to break through my tough exterior. Even, your flirtations." I laughed.

"I'm flattered, Caroline Forbes. I will also miss how you were one of the few that I could be myself with. Or, how much fun I had embarrassing you when I said flirtatious things to you. How you would try and act like you didn't like my attention. I'll miss having you around to tease." He said sadly.

"See! You're doing it!" I cried a few tears falling down my face.

"I'm sorry." He said hugging me tight angry with himself.

"Ha. I have to do this." I sighed.

"I know. Go before I try, and stop you." He said sadly.

"Thank you! You're a good friend, Enzo." I said.

"Ugh! You're such a girl! So emotional! Kidding! Kidding!" He yelled holding his arm as I punched it.

"Bye, Enzo." I said as I got into my car and Enzo closed the door for me.

"Goodbye, Caroline. Keep in touch." I heard him say as I drove off.