Demented

Chapter 7

I've spent 9 hours just thinking about what Aydan told me yesterday. "Figure out how you feel" .. I know that I had mixed emotions about Chase but now.. Now it's like I know exactly how I feel but I'm pushing it away subconsciously .. But I don't even know what I'm pushing away. It irritates me that I love being in his presence & I go into a trance when he smiles or when he just simply looks into my eyes... & how I could find a million reasons to smile by just standing next to him..

"Hey hey hey." Emily came skipping into my room with a huge smile that can brighten up your day in an instant.

"Hey." I giggled at her enthusiasm. She seems so oblivious to the fact that I might be in huge trouble if I have fallen for Chase.

"What's been going on?" She sung & jumped on the bed.

"I just don't know how I feel about Chase.. Like I know how I feel but my head is just pushing it away. " I fell back on my bed so I got a clear view of the ceiling.

"Tori. Do you want to know what I have to say ?" She fell back with me. I want to say no but the only reason I don't want to hear what she has to say is because it's the truth.

"Yeah.." I drifted off.. Preparing myself for what's about to come out.

"Okay, Tori. I've known you for a very very long time & I know that when you like someone, you're the most generous & welcoming person. People always feel comfortable opening up to you because you never judge & you always help. When you don't like someone you just back off & keep your distance. & you have not backed off of Chase. Your eyes always ignite when he's close to you & your smile always glows brighter when you look in his eyes. You could be having the worst day ever & as soon as he is in your presence , you could swear you're the happiest girl in the room. Tori, you know how you feel. If you liked him as a friend, it would've been easy to say. If you hated him.. We wouldn't be in this position. Face it , Tori. You've fallen for the enemy" She sat up & looked back at me to see my expression. I feel like a rock just got thrown at me at full speed & now I'm just an open wound. & the sad thing is.. There's only one person who can heal this wound & I don't want to see him. Apart of me wants to cry because if anybody finds out & it leaks to any of the other demons.. I'm in trouble.

"Tori! Don't worry. I won't tell anybody. The last thing I want is for you to get hurt.. Emotionally & physically.." She gave me a warm smile & tight hug. She always knows what to say & she always helps me get through everything. I don't know what I'd do without her.

"Come. Let's go get some coffee." She pulled me out of my bed. Not caring that I'm still in my pajamas.

"Em!" I laughed as she pulled me down the stairs. I nearly tripped twice but she didn't even notice. We got into her car & as soon as I closed my door she blasted the music & drove off. Which is what I usually do when I'm not in the mood for anything. A quick drive past & we walked into Seattle coffee.

"Oh my gosh. Are you being serious, Emily ?" I moaned at the sight of the blue eyed boy & his very familiar friend.

"Don't blame me? I didn't know they'd be here. But come!" Her smile lit up & before I could even object, she was at Aydans feet. & of course.. I followed.

"Pajamas, Tori?" Chase chuckled & scanned my outfit. Well, this is actually your fault so shut up.

"Yeah, Emily dragged me out the house not sparring me a minute to even do my hair." I rolled my eyes at Emily who was standing next to me, blabbing on to Aydan. I loosened my hair & took out my clips that were holding the odd pieces of hair together. But just before I could re-tie my hair..