Demented

Chapter 8

"I wasn't expecting to tell you so soon but I guess now you need to know.." He took one deep breath & sat back in his chair.

"I had a girlfriend, we were dating for a year but we knew each other for longer. Oh how she's make me smile & made me feel wanted & every second I wasn't with her I felt like apart of me was missing.." He leaned forward & put his elbows on his knees & his chin in his hands. Hearing this did make me a bit upset but only a little.

"She was a vampire.. & vampires & Demons CANNOT associate , Tori! They can't! But being the stupid teenagers we were, we rebelled against every rule thrown at our face. But this time.. This time, Tori, it back fired. The demons found out & one day, whilst we were cuddling & watching tv, they came, they came & they hit me across the head with a metal object, they smashed her head against the wall & they dragged her off. I tried to follow, Tori! I tried! I tried to save her but they were too fast. They disappeared. They killed her. I followed the blood trails but eventually, they disappeared. I.. I just never fall easily.. But I fell hard for her. & to think I like you more than a friend & we've only known each other for like a few weeks is scaring me. But like the idiot I am, I encourage it. & I shouldn't be." He's breathing got deeper & I could hear his heart beat rise. His eyes started to water & his face got paler. His eyes turned green & his hands were becoming fists. I was not expecting any of that.. Why would he tell me he likes me if he knows what could happen?

"Chase.. Oh my god.. I was not expecting that at all. I knew it would be bad but.." My heart sank just looking at his expression. He's torn.

"I shouldn't be leading you on. I don't know why I'm trying to. I just thought maybe I had a second shot.. I don't think before I act. & I let my head get to me instead of listening to my heart. The last thing I want is to see you being dragged off." He buried his face in his hands & huffed. Almost like he was imagining the scene.

"Chase.. It's okay.. We can't control the way we feel.. But we need to be careful because I don't want to die.." I tried to lighten the mood & I could see a smile appear on his face. He doesn't know how to control his emotions or his actions or his mouth. He's too forward & he doesn't think before he acts.

"That whole situation tore me .. It ripped me apart. & when I saw you, Tori, I knew you'd be a huge help & that you'd be there to pick me up when I've fallen. You gave me that impression all in one month & it's weird because I usually have girls running after me & I'm running away. I would on the occasional, hook up to see if I could 'replace' her but nothing. Then you came.." He rolled his eyes. It looked as if he was disgusted with himself. I don't know how he felt when we kissed but I don't know if I want to.. It seemed to take quite an affect on him.

"Chase.. I don't know what to say.. I don't know how it felt when we kissed but I know I fall easily & if I've already fallen for you then I don't think I want to know how it feels.." All my feelings have happened in the space of 2 months. & those who rush, stumble & I don't want to fall.

"Trust me, you don't. Vampires & demons have very sensitive emotions & I don't know if you've felt it yet but vampires get a shock when your feeling for someone is exactly the same as what they feel for you. " He knew I got the shock .. That's why he got the overly happy feeling. He knew the feeling was neutral.

"Yeah. I've felt it. But there's something that's been bugging me.." I still can't get over how he just didn't look at me once when he was apologizing.

"What's that?" He sat up & scanned my cut.

"When you were apologizing to me.. You didn't make eye contact once. I know it's stupid but I want to believe your apology but I couldn't because people avoid eye contact when they're lying. " now it sounds as if I'm accusing him of lying.. But you can't blame me.. Can you ?