Blurry Memories (Solby)

breakfast talks

[Colby's PoV]

      Where am I? Sam? Sam?? What is going on?. I asked myself. Everything around me was white. Nothing there. Just.. pure emptiness. Suddenly a wall out of glass appeared in front of me. Sam was standing on the other side of the wall. I was running towards the glass and started to knock hardly against the wall, screaming Sam's name but he didn't hear me. Silent tears fell down my cheeks as my surroundings slowly turned darker and darker until everything was pitch black. I looked around again as I saw bright yellowish rays coming from above hitting my face.

      I opened my eyes slowly as the sun rays hit my face. I got up slowly and looked around the room tierd. As my eyes wandered around my room I had to think about the dream I just had. What a weird dream. Since when am I dreaming of Sam? The dream in general doesn't even make sense.

      I rolled over to my night stand and grabbed my phone. I looked at the time. 9:14 am. I rubbed my eyes one more time before I stretched a little and then got up to change into new clothes. As I wanted to open my door and step out of my room my eyes catched something laying on my bed. It was the album that Sam gave me yesterday. The feeling I had while looking at all those photos was... strange. I don't really know if I actually remember those moments that we captured or if I just imagine that I remember him because I really want to. I shook my head and the headed out.

      I walked down the stairs and with every step that I got closer to the living/kitchen area, the voices that I heard became louder and clearer.
"Mornin'", Corey said to me as he saw me entering the kitchen. "Good Morning", I greeted back. "Where are the others?", I asked as I realised that he was the only one standing in the kitchen and making breakfast. "Well Sam's still in his room and Jake and Aaron are in the garage, Jake wanted to show him Something, I don't know but they should be back in a minute.", Corey answered while he flipped the pancakes over.

      Sam. Whenever I hear his name it's like something sharp stabs trough my heart. I know that he's hurt and I can only imagine how hard these times must be for him, that's why I want to remember him so bad. I want him to be happy again. I mean it's been some time since I'm back here but all of the times that I talked to Sam kind of felt either awkward or uncomfortable. He couldn't even look me in the eyes most of the time. As I thought about his eyes I remembered the day when Sam and Corey visited me in the hospital for the first time. Sam looked so worried. He looked so cute. Cute? No. He's a handsome and attractive man, yeah but that's it.

      "Hey man, could you place those on the table?", Corey then asked and made me come back to reality. "Uh sure.", I said and grabbed the plates. In that moment Jake and Aaron entered the front door laughing. "Oh hi Colby", both of them said. I smiled. "Morning."
"Where's Sam?", Aaron asked. "He's still up in his room. Sam usually never eats breakfast with the boys since Colby's back. He tries to avoid them as much as possible which is literally not the best decision he ever made. "I know that this is hard for him but he finally has to step out of it.", Jake said kind of bothered. I just nodded my head. "I could ask him if he wants to come down.", I said and the boys agreed to that.

      I walked up the stairs again and stopped at Sam's door. I knocked first. "Can I come in Sam?", I asked. "Yeah.", he replied. I opened the door slowly. "Hey man, um I just wanted to ask if you want to come down and eat some pancakes with all of us.", I asked softly, I was afraid he'd get angry if I ask this question but all of the sudden he started to smile. "Sure.", he then said and walked past me down to the kitchen. I stayed where I was for a second with a questioning look on my face.

      Now all of us were sitting on the table eating pancakes laughing at jokes and talking about random things. It felt good. Even though I knew that Sam really didn't want to be here I appreciated that he at least gave his best to act like everything was fine. "Well you two are gonna be alone over the weekend.", Corey said and pointed at first at me and then at Sam with his fork. "Why?", Sam asked. "Well I wanted to go back to Florida to visit my family, Aaron wants to visit his girlfriend and Jake wants to visit an old friend of his.", Corey explained. I already knew all those things but Sam probably didn't. I mean how could he? He never really talks to anyone.

      "That's totally okay, I mean we're not gonna set the house on fire or something.", I laughed a little and looked over to Sam who also looked at me. In the eyes. Those ocean blue eyes...