tears and heart stains

empty

i never understood what people meant when they said

they felt

empty

but I do now

and its all because of him

his parasitic love that I thought was just that:

love

instead, he preyed on my weakness

chewed me up

and spat me right out

I feel empty without him

and that's why I despise him

despise myself

because like the stupid host i am

i allowed him to suck my love dry 

and now my heart is empty, damaged

and only he can fill it