[✓] i'll be here | chuuves

[11] ill be here - sad ver

even if a new year begins, and people change, there are always some that don't. the previous year never really stops, even if it is declared it has ended. some moments still pass by, and memories flood in, whether it has a meaning behind it, or it doesn't. you always get a sense that the past returns, for the good or bad.

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2:03am the clock read. sooyoung had been staying up quite late recently, she wasn't sure why, but she felt as if something was always on her mind. although, she couldn't tell what. she stared long and hard at the bright screen in front of her. her small white room was lit up with the colour blue as her laptops screen projected images and information. she couldn't tell if she was reading this correctly, but her new year surely wasn't going well for her. her dream college, that she was sure she'd get into, didn't accept her. she didn't even place in the the tests she was good at on the top 100. the people who got in must've been really smart, and put lots of effort into her studies. she just wished she could go in time and change her whole school life up. her phone besides her lit up as she received a message from her friends group chat. despite the few months of hatred, they were now growing closer, even if they were going to different schools or countries to study.

sooyoung opened her phone to receive a conversation that included her name:

jinsoultea 🧃：
omg yo sy, get online rn!

(sy stands for sooyoung)

oliviajoohey 🥱：
you legit just made me lose
my game jinsoil

jinsoultea 🧃：
jinsoil? anyways SY GET HERE!!

chaewon4eva 🎀:
stfu i'm tryna sleep here

oliviajoohey 🥱:
obvs miss j.jinsoul doesn't care

chaewon4eva 🎀:
ugh i'm going back to sleep

jinsoultea 🧃:
YOU CANT, okay anyways i'm sure
once sooyoung sees this she'll come
online... i saw jiwoo in your area of
town sy, you should go talk to her!

chaewon4eva 🎀:
good nigh- OMG NO WAYYY

oliviajoohey 🥱:
less exciting then i expected
goodbye my teammates need
me, and if you need me i won't
be answering, byeeee

chaewon4eva 🎀:
i hate her sometimes

jinsoultea 🧃:
same girllll

sooyoung:
omg what?

jinsoultea 🧃:
she's finally here
and yes girl u heard me!

sooyoung:
i'm gonna try talk
to her, ty soulie

jinsoultea 🧃:
of course love, u
owe me tho.

chaewon4eva 🎀:
pfft like you owe her all your
money for her buying you all
those teas

jinsoultea 🧃:
uhm eXCUSE ME!?

sooyoung immediately put her phone down, despite having received more messages on jinsoul and chaewon arguing over stupid things. she was still dressed since she had gone out to buy a few needs. she quickly put her coat on and made her way outside.

to her luck, jiwoo was still in the area, she was waiting at the bus stop for her bus whilst she scrolled through instagram and twitter, liking posts from old school mates on how their vacations went and posts her favourite singers and idols had shared. out of breath from running, sooyoung appeared in front of jiwoo, causing jiwoo to look at her immediately from all the panting she heard. from the moment she saw she her then, she was disinterested. the light spring rain now became heavier as sooyoung tried to regain the girls attention. at last she did so. but only because jiwoo wanted to get what sooyoung was here for over and done with. sounds familiar right? it was always the situation with these two nowadays. sooyoung was suddenly at a loss for words after all the planning she thought of whilst walking and then running to her destination. the only thing she could spit out was "i'm sorry" sorry for what exactly? at this point she didn't know either. jiwoo just looked at her and shook her head. "i'm not sure if all my glares i've given you were a sign to leave me alone." she said, taking a breath and then, continuing on. "so i'll say it with my words," by now she was slightly shouting, the agitation could be heard in her voice, "leave me alone please, you caused me so much pain i can not stand to see your face." sooyoung just stood there, her back getting wetter and wetter from the rains drizzle. "i don't want to be seen with you, now that i think about it, i left that school because of you! i have a burning passion of hate towards you!" jiwoo remained calm, but you could tell that this time, it was her boiling up inside. "so just don't try contact me, i blocked your number and it's obviously not enough of a signal for you, are you that desperate? move on. have a life without me, you are unforgivable, ha sooyoung." as those last words left her mouth, her bus arrived, she quickly exited herself from the scene she had just created and hopped onto the bus. sooyoung watched as she kindly thanked the driver and sat the seat at the back. where she always sat. she knew jiwoo too much. by now sooyoung was soaked in the rain, she wasn't standing under the shelter and instead just watched the bus drive off into the distance. how could she describe this heart break? a few tears escaped her eyes, as she finally realised, jiwoo will never be here for her. and jiwoo didn't want her here either. and even if it still hurt. in her mind heart and soul, perhaps in another life. she'd want to be beside jiwoo. the rains shards dropped onto the ground, as sooyoung whispered 3 words. "i'll be here."

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whether you think it or not. even if it isn't happy, the story always finishes.

the end.