The Beat Of My Heart

Im Not Okay

Word Count-3148

Warnings- alcohol and daddy issues

The losers can be wearing whatever party attire you would like to picture them in

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The party was in an hour and everyone was done getting ready and rehearsing. They all decided to stay together since all of the Losers were going to the party. Mike was there to hold Bill's camera, which no one would no about until after the party. Ben was there for moral support mostly, he didn't enjoy parties too often, but he liked seeing his friends have a fun time.

As of now Beverley, Stan, Richie, and Eddie where all in Richie's room hanging out since Mike and Bill would be picking them up tonight.

"Ok Bev let's not bring that up", Richie said while laughing nervously

"Oh no, oh no Bev, I think we do need to bring that up", Eddie said intrigued

"Yeah Bev, the fact that Richie wrote his own song", Stan said while laughing slightly

"Come on guys it wasn't that big of a deal ok, you can stop making fun now", Richie said cautiously

Bev could have chose to drop it, but she persisted.

"Wasn't that big a deal, Richie its a huge deal the first song you ever wrote was actually something", Beverly said

"Come on what was, it what was it", Stanley pleaded

"Yeah what in the world did that brain of yours come up with", Eddie said but a frightening thought came to him. As he clenched his fanny pack images of crumpled up paper flashed in his mind. The songs on Richie's desks.

"Well they were originally about Richie's dad being a complete and total jerk but you know how it is", Beverly said

Beverly didn't realize the impact her words had on Stan and Eddie, I mean sure they knew that Richie's dad was a jerk and they frequently talked about it. Never without Richie present though, they couldn't hurt to Richie like that, but right now Bev was slightly tipsy and she wasn't thinking.

"Richie seriously what was it called we have to know", Stan said

Richie just sat there, he didn't know how to answer, his dad just made him crawl all over. But like Richie's guardian angel

"Yeah Rich what was it called", Eddie said softly as he trapped Richie's hand

"Uhm it was uh called four hundred and seventy two words",Richie said hesitantly

"Context please Rich", Stan said as he snapped his fingers

"Well I uhm-", Richie was saying before he was interrupted

"If you want to of course Rich", Stan said

"Mmhm Richie if you just wanna vibe out for a bit we'll totally vibe", Beverly said and turned to face Richie and rub circles on his knee

Eddie only looked at Richie and smiled at him. He then placed his head right next to Richie's and started running his hands through his hair, he could tell Richie was getting nervous and that's what Rich would do to himself to calm himself down. Which made Richie super relaxed and felt super touch starved even though his friends were all very touchy-feely.