shine || ptg hui x (g)idle soojin

XXVII : ten or none

"s-soojin, i--," i looked down, "i'm sorry for
making you feel that way."

"no need to be sorry, hui. i should be the one to feel apologetic, i cried out of a sudden." she said between her sobs. this girl is really pure, seo soojin is really pure.

"don't worry, yeeun and i are just friends. and, always remember this, you're the only one girl that i would always love. i want to promise that but before i do, i would want to fullfill it first." i said and held her hands.

i can't promise something i can't fullfill in the end. i don't want to be that kind of person and i want to prove soojin that. them again, her hands felt like heaven. being with her feels like i'm in cloud nine, i'm in heaven, i'm in my safe place. soojin is that kind of person to me.

"make sure to have enough sleep, okay? i'll try to spare some time with you." i told her before sending her off. her mom always fetches her here often in the dorm.

"have a safe drive, mrs. kim." i said and bowed before they got off. my feet rushed running inside the building. it's summer but when night comes, it feels like winter. the weather here in south korea is crazy!

before entering the dorm, i wished hyojong would be asleep by now. i don't know how to face him after what happened earlier. but to my surprise, he's still wide awake watching the tv. he looked at me for a second and he stood up to go to his own room. ugh, this is bad.

i took a shower before getting into bed. my eyes was shut but my body doesn't want to. i want to sleep but my body is against on it. i guess i can't force myself into sleep so i decided to kill some time eavesdropping. remembering what happened today was like a roller coaster ride.

i heard my phone beeped. let's talk about this tomorrow, guys. cube café. 3pm.

jinho messaged the group chat. i sighed upon reading the message. what should i do?

"i'm almost there, wait for me!" i shouted on the other line and got off the bus. last night, i really can't sleep so i sneaked on the company and tried to finish a song that i made years ago. i stayed up until 8am without sleep and that was a bad desicion! i went home at 9am and tried to have a 30 minutes nap but it turned into a 6 hours sleep. actually, cube café isn't that far from the dorm but taking the bus would be faster.

"oh, you're finally here!" jinho said as i entered the café. i slumped my bottoms on the soft sofa and tried to catch my breath. hongseok handed me a bottle of water and drank it.

"now that everyone is here, we should discuss about it." hongseok said.

"hyung, i will be really sincere and honest for what i will say. i don't have any grudges or anything to all of you just because the seven of you will debut. plus, i don't want to feel that we are the reason why you don't want to debut. i really mean it, hyung. please debut without us." shinwon stated.

"shinwon, that's not--," changgu was about to say something when hyojong cut him off.

"can't you all understand him? his desicion is also mine and yan an's desicion. just debut without us and this will be over!" hyojong shouted and yuto went on his side to calm him down.

"hyojong! you don't have to shout at them! you don't have to say it that way!" i said at him.

"why? can't i?" he stood up, "can't i, hui?" and pushed my shoulder.

"fine! if that's what you want! we'll debut without the three of you then!" i said back at him. "you would all agree to that, right?"

i stared at everyone. their faces was with a surprised look and the others are looking down. my anger doesn't really want to come out of it's shell but something triggered it and made it come out.

"manager-hyung texted me, the ceo wants to have a meeting with us." hyunggu said after staring at his phone.

"right now?" wooseok asked and he nodded. "i thought he's going to give us two days."

"you might be surprised why i called you here, right? well, i called an urgent meeting earlier with the artist development team and the label liaison team regarding your debut. i heard from manager kang that you had a group talk before this and i guess you already have a desicion. let me say something first. we cope up with some good news for you." the ceo said.

"what is it?" i asked.

"the artist development team came up with having a pentagon's first mini concert but if the said concert will have at least 2000 audiences, the three members will have the chance to debut. the label liaison team sees it as a good idea and agreed to it. what do you think? ah, i would also like to hear your desicion."

"that seems like a good idea but we decided to debut without the three members." i replied to him.

"well it seemed like everyone agreed to it but let's try this one. having a mini concert would expand your fanbase not only here in south korea but also abroad. and also, chinese market is very huge and having yan an in the group would profit both the group and the company. i will have the promotion and publicity department do the promoting. let's just give this a shot." he said.

the other members looked at me and gave a small nod. "that would be nice, sajangnim."

"that's all for today. i will  make sure that everything would come as planned." he said before getting up to his seat.

"we will promise to work hard!" we said altogether and bowed.

"oh, before i forgot, i will give you 2 days to have a rest then i will tell manager kang the further details. pentagon, fighting!" he added and went out of the room.

"hyung." the chinese boy came to my direction and hugged me. he is really a softie ever since i met him.

"don't cry! you're also making me cry!" i said and hugged him. tears started to form in my eyes. why am i tearing up?

"hui hyung is crying! look at him!" yuto started teasing me.

"let's do a group hug!" jinho shouted and joined the hug followed by the other members.

"hey, kim hyojong! don't be a killjoy and join us." shinwon dragged him from his seat to us.

"1,2,3, pentagon," we hugged altogether, "fighting!" and shouted like crazy.

now, my heart and soul feels like in peace. the space in my heart has been filled already. no matter what happens, pentagon will be a group with ten members and not seven.

it's ten or none.