Make It Rain (Sons of Anarchy) *discontinued*

Chapter Eighteen

"Eighteen and life, you got it. Eighteen and life to go."
-18 And Life by Skid Row
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       Two days was all it took for me to decide if I was ready to be Jax's old lady or not, but I had to wait for him to ask me. I wasn't going to ask about it myself because I felt like I'd seem pushy or something. At least, being Jax's old lady, I wouldn't have to worry about being alone anymore. I'd be able to feel accepted for once in my life and actually be happy about it. I didn't have to hate myself or hate my life anymore.

      Anyhow, I was brought out of my thoughts, when Jax turned his head towards me. He and I had been watching a movie, since it was late at night and neither of us were tired. We would've messed around, but Jax had been shot at earlier in the day, so he had major bruising on his chest and back and he was a bit sore and stiff. After much objection from Jax, he decided to follow my orders, since I was a nurse and knew what was best for him.

"It's been a couple days, and I believe you've soaked in all the information I've given you." Jax commented, causing me to nod.

"Yes, and as you can see, I haven't run for the hills yet." I replied, a chuckle leaving his lips.

"Good, but I've got a couple questions for you that I want you to answer honestly. Can you do that for me?" He asked, making me nod instantly.

"Of course, Jax. Anything." I answered, a smile gracing his lips for a moment.

      The smile left as quick as it came though, showing the seriousness of the situation.

"You are ready to take care of Abel right? I mean, I don't want to push him on you if you're not ready, but we're kind of a packaged deal." He asked, and I sighed.

"Honestly, if you were anyone else, I would probably say no, but I believe I am. I mean, I want to be with you, and I'm alright with Abel being a part of that. Besides, he's already melted my heart, I wouldn't want to let him go now." I said, as he chuckled.

"Yeah, he has the Teller charm already." He joked, and I nodded in agreement.

"That's for sure." I added, smiling as I thought of the little boy still in the hospital.

      The conversation went quiet for a moment, making me wonder if Jax had forgotten his other question, but that thought ran away quickly when Jax turned his head to me again and bit his lip.

"I've never had to ask a girl this before, but I guess I will have to now. You're alright with Abel not being your blood, right?" He asked, and I bit my lip for a moment.

     Was I alright with Abel not being my blood? Yes, but was this his way of asking if I was alright with raising his kid when it's not mine? That was the real question, especially after he told Tara I was going to be Abel's mother. I didn't want to be a live-in nanny, just until Abel was old enough to take care of himself.

"Of course, why would you even have to ask that?" I replied, almost feeling offended by his question.

"I had seen many girls leave after a year or so of taking care of a kid that wasn't maternally theirs. I mean, Abel will be yours, by all means, you just didn't have to shove him out of you. I just didn't want you to despise us later on." He said, as if he had known that his question hurt my feelings.

"Are you ready for a girl being around forever? I mean, you will be stuck with me, ya know?" I asked, causing him to chuckle.

"As if I'd ever say 'no' to you. I'll always be ready to have you around, darlin'. I'm just glad you're ready to be around me and Abel. He'll have one hell of a mother, I can tell you that." He replied, making me smile.

       Knowing Jax was ready to be with me, maybe settle down with me, made my heart skip a beat. I was happy to know that I wasn't going to end up alone, at least, not yet. If my father had anything to say about it, I'd probably die alone with a hundred cats.

"One more serious question, then we can get back to the movie." Jax commented, causing me to look away from the tv screen and meet his eyes.

"Yes?" I asked, as he bit his lip.

     He had seemed almost nervous to talk to me, which actually made me nervous as well. I wasn't sure what his question was, but I knew that it had to have been majorly serious if he seemed almost too nervous to ask me.

"Are you ready to be my old lady?" He asked, causing me to smile lightly.

"Yes, Jax, I am." I replied, a grin coming to his face almost instantly.

      I didn't expect him to ask me so soon. Honestly, I expected him to ask me right before Abel came home. Speaking of, we still hadn't figured out where he'd be staying. Wouldn't matter, since I knew for a fact that I wanted him in Jax's house. If I had to move in with them than I would, but that was only if Jax was ready for that step.

"You do know that means you have to get my crow." Jax said, causing me to laugh lightly.

"You say that as if I hadn't already gotten many tattoos before." I retorted, and he smirked.

"Yeah, but this is permanent and makes us permanent." Jax answered, making me frown.

"But didn't Wendy have it, too? Did Tara?" I asked, and he sighed, but shrugged.

"Yeah, but they weren't worth it. I know you are. You'll wear it with pride. Just to prove my point though, I'll get your name on me." He replied, and I grinned.

"You really are a special person, Jax Teller." I commented, and he chuckled.

        Jax Teller may just be the person who I could spend my forever with, but forever is a really long time...

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A/N: I hope you guys liked this chapter. So, with quarantine going the way it is, I've been writing a lot. I've already finished two books, as of right now, and I'll probably finish way more by the time I get to chapter twenty five of this book. I plan to finish at least five to ten books by the end of quarantine.

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