I just want to say that I am seriously thankful that you guys read and enjoy my book(s). It means a lot that I'm able to express my creativity through writing and have such supportive people reading it.
Dont get me wrong Im not here to give you a sob story. My lifes messed up, but I know that it isnt something I should be going around announcing like everybody else doesnt have their own problems.
I sure as hell dont want you to pity me or feel sad for me. I mean if you want to, be my guest, but that's not what this is about.
This is about you.
Yes you, you little adorable couch potatoe that's reading this in bed right now. Or maybe you are a productive badass bitch that's reading this while doing some daily shit early in the morning. Either way this is about you.
To those of you who are reading this book early; Congratulations on making it through a pandemic, because nobody cares about corona anymore, and congratulations on being apart of a very important part of history. We are all fighting for what we believe in and hopefully things can change for the better.
And if you aren't reading this book during this whole...um...crazy situaiton? Well dont feel left out. Hopefully I'm still on this app so that my dm's are still open.
Anywho back to what I was saying...Right!
I just want to say that you guys are really supportive and really funny. It's always fun reading your guys' comments and I honestly enjoy joining in on some of the conversations too.
You seriously dont know how much I appretiate you and how much you mean to me. Every single read/view, wether you comment or not, matters to me. Wether you vote or not, your read/view matters to me. It gives me courage and it helps me so much. More than you can imagine.
And I know for a fact that at least 50% of my readers all have gone through so much rough times and the fact that you are still here means that you've fought through those rough times.
You may have battle scars, but baby, that's what makes you the badass bitch you are. For better or for worse, you are much more wiser and you understand a lot more than the normal person due to those scars.
Wether it's visible or not, those scars show what you've been through and they all tell a story. I, too, have scars like that and I'm here to tell you that scars are okay.
And you know what else is okay? Not being okay!
Everyone says, "It's okay!" Or, "You just have to be strong!" Or, "Wipe those tears and cheer up!"
But I honestly think that's some bull. shit.
Cry it out for fucks sake! Stop holding it in! Cry even if it means you look like an ugly cow while doing it because baby its okay to look like a cow every now and then. Fuck those perfect fucking godesses like Madison Beer and Addison Rae and whoever the fuck God decided to give good looks to.
Also to those of you who have shitty families; Fuck yo family bitch! This is yo fucking family now! We are yo family and you have no choice. Point blank periodt.
Dont let their negative words or manipulative actions shape who you are. You are you. And you are enough. And if anyone tells you otherwise then you can look them right in the eyes and say, "Fuck you! Wack ass bitch! Your opinions based off of jelousy and envy are not wanted or relevent so you can go and take your insecure ass back to the barn you came from fugly pig."
You can add a little "oink" if you want to at the end, its your choice.
No, but seriously, abusive families, both mental and physical, suck and I am so sorry if you are living through that right now.
I'm sorry that you have to pretend like everything is okay when, in reality, nothing is.
I'm sorry that you have to be the friend that everyone leans on, but nobody is there for you when you need it the most.
Im sorry that you are casted aside and treated like an outsider when all you want to do is fit in.
Im sorry that people refuse to be your friends because you're "weird" or "annoying" when you arent.
Im sorry that your life is so messed up that you find comfort and peace in a world full of fantasies.
Im sorry that you stay awake at night because too many thoughts run in your head at night or you simply cant fall asleep.
Im sorry that you are so mentally tired that it weighs on you and makes you physically tired.
Im sorry that you've been bottling everything inside because you havent found the right person to tell all of your secrets to.
Im sorry that you dont believe in love or you dont know what love is at this point because of everything you've seen and everything thats happened to you.
Im sorry that everyday feels like the same thing over and over agian.
Im sorry that you feel like you're about to burst at any moment.
And I'm sorry that my apologies and words cant heal the scars that run deep down in your soul. I truly wish that I had an oitment or anything that could heal the wounds you've gotten by fighting this battle called life.
It isnt fair to you. You didnt do anything to deserve this.
Now I dont know if you are crying or not right now or if you have no more tears left to cry, but I want you to know that you can let go of everything right now. Right now it's just you and me. You can be vulnerable. I wont tell anyone.
In fact I'll hide you away and protect you until you're ready to face the world again.
If you need anyone to talk to or maybe you just need to vent to someone, I am fine with that. My dm's are always open. I will gladly sit there and listen to you. Give you whatever advice I can give. Anything you need, I will try my best to help you.
One more thing before we end this and go back to the story.
I dont know if you hear this enough, but I want you to know...
Based off of everything you've been through,
The choices you've made,
The lives you've impacted,
The burdens you carry,
The change you've forced upon yourself,
The skills you've required,
And the lessons you've learned,
Im proud of you.
YOU ARE READING
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