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19. How Could I leave Him

~ Edited 

A/N: As I was editing this story it just felt right to add this extra chapter so hope you enjoy

Vic's Pov: 

Walking out of the house while Austin was holding Kellin, crying and thrashing around reaching out for me broke my heart in two how could I leave him I couldn't hold it together by the time I had gotten to the door of the bus waving back at him seeing him even more upset I couldn't control the tears falling down my face as Jaime shut the bus door and we started driving away. 

" Vic" 

Mike starts but I couldn't talk right now all I could think about was Kellin how could I leave him in that state I have half a mind to tell the bus driver to stop pulling out of the driveway and run-up to the house and just take Kellin back in my arms once more. I ignore Mike calling my name as I walk into the back lounge collapsing on the couch breaking down I couldn't hold it in any longer I hate seeing my little kitten upset especially knowing I'm the one who caused it. I put my face in my hands letting it all out I hear Mike, Jaime, and Tony's footsteps walking towards the back of the bus. 

" Vic" 

Mike says softly once again I still say nothing not trusting my voice. 

" It's going to be okay Vic we're going to be here for you every step of the way" 

Jaime says throwing his arm around my shoulder, I take a deep breath trying to regain some form of control over my emotions before looking up at all of them staring at me worriedly. 

" It was hard seeing him that upset I feel like I'm doing something wrong" 

I sigh. 

" I know to be honest I was about to start crying" 

Tony says. 

" But Kellin knows you love your music and going on tour you're not doing anything wrong Vic you know Kellin is scared of you leaving and you two have been joint at the hip since the day you met so of course, it's going to be hard but you can skype him and text Austin as much as you want to check up on him and fly home on our days off it's not going to be easy but I know you and Kellin are strong enough to get through this and you will be home in no time" 

Mike says reassuringly. I say nothing just nod my head in agreement before pulling out my phone and sending Austin a quick text message to see if Kellin had calmed down at all I had never seen him like that he looked so heartbroken and scared I just wanted to take it all away. 

" Well I didn't mean now" 

Mike says causing everyone to laugh. 

" I know Mikey I've just never seen Kellin that upset and I just want to make sure Austin is able to calm him down" 

I say causing Mike to nod his head in understanding. 

" I told him I loved him" 

I say causing them all to stop and stare at me shocked. 

" Really" 

Tony says excitedly. 

" Yeah" 

I say sighing 

" That's amazing dude did he say it back" 

Jaime says smiling. 

" Yeah but it kinda sucks that I only had the balls to tell him this as I'm leaving for tour it really was a bittersweet moment" 

I say. 

" That's really amazing Vic I'm happy for you both see I told you Kellin was the perfect little kitten for you and I'm clearly never wrong" 

Mike says causing me to roll my eyes playfully punching his arm. I do really love him and as much as I hate to admit it to myself Mike was right Kellin really is the perfect little kitten for me that's why it's so hard to leave him even for a short period of time as much as I love playing shows and seeing all our fans I also really cannot wait to have my perfect little kitten back in my arms again.