Week Four
Giving Thanks
November 21st/22nd, 2012
Thanksgiving Weekend
Song: 'Everytime' by Britney Spears
Instead of: 'Dear Mama' by 2Pac
Alright this week for Thanksgiving which this week would be 'Giving Thanks', but this song selection for this was extremely tough.
Finally I chose 'Everytime' by Britney Spears, because if I can save 'Dear Mama' by 2Pac as a cover, instead.
But it was very risky because I always remember Justin Timberlake breakup with Britney Spears, 'Everytime' was the response to 'Cry Me A River', but everyone knew of the fallout.
The nerves are on edge; this wasn't the best performance this week; because I had too much drama I got notified of the fallout I am now in, because people have now figured out my whole background.
People found out that I'm intersex and lesbian, plus they know I got bullied because being intersex and lesbian all my life, plus I was diagnosed with depression because of all bullying and beratement. I had also contacts my sister back home, plus including Amber, she was taking some heat from opposing fans during games.
The drama was messing with me, the mindset I had was to get through with an adequate effort. But the light flashed onto me as the intro to the song begun.
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Stranger when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me
And every time, I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And every time I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done?
You seem to move uneasy
And every time I try to fly I fall,
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And every time I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I may have made it rain
Please, forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night, I pray
That soon your face will fade away
And every time I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And every time I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
The crowd roared loudly and the judges were clapping, but I obviously didn't do as well as I could've because only Simon and Demi were standing. Dermot walked over and put his arm around me.
'Serenity, It wasn't you're best if I have to be honest with you I mean it was still good, but it could've been better. Let's hope these people save you,' LA says and I nod, I'm just not into it. The crowd all boo LA and I half-smile.
'Darling it was great, but you're normally amazing! And you didn't get into the song. For me it didn't work that well,' Britney says and I smile and nod. To be completely honest I agree.
'That was amazing, but babe you didn't seem happy to be up there. I didn't see that cute little smile I always see,' Demi says and pouts. I smile and giggle a little.
'You know what, yes it wasn't your best week, but she's still amazing! That's what makes her as great as an artist!' Simon says and the crowd cheers really loud.
'Serenity what do you think on the comments?' Dermot asks.
'Well, If I be completely honest with you I agree, It wasn't my best performance, I guess we all just have one of those off days and unfortunately mine came on a Saturday, but what can you do,' I say and the crowd cheers.
'Serenity Stieneke, everyone,' Dermot says, I smile and wave as I walk off.
I see Paige and I walk over to her, as she was waving me over.
'You did amazing Serenity!' She says and I thank her.
'No Hug?' She continues and pouts.
'Not in the mood,' I mutter, she nods and smiles sadly.
'Yeah I know about your whole secret that you're intersex, It's gonna get better, Serenity,' She says and I roll my eyes.
'Apparently everyone f**king knows,' I say angrily and flail my arms around out of frustration.
'Serenity calm down,' she says concerned.
'Why should I? Everyone knows about everything, I might as well, tell you, myself. I've been bullied for both being intersex and being a lesbian too,' I say and start crying tears of anger.
'Go Ahead, Tell everyone I'm a lesbian, been bullied for being a lesbian and being intersex, It's not like I care!' I shout and I fall to the floor and sob.
'Serenity, it's okay,' Normani & Ally says, as they sit down next to me and the hug me with the other 5H memebers, Paige Thomas, Cece Frey, Bea Miller, and Carly Rose, also sat next to me, as I sob onto Ally and Normani. Luckily they'd already performed.
'Why am I likely this?!' I say between sobs. Ally strokes my hair to try to calm me down.
'Serenity you're amazing. Stop doubting yourself all the time. It actually hurts seeing you like this,' Normani says and I could tell by her voice she was going through I cry too.
'M-Mani, Can I tell you something?' I say and look into her eyes.
'Of Course,'
'I-I have depression,'I say ashamed. She lifts my head and smiles at me.
'Your depression doesn't define you; you're still the same Serenity that's my best friend. She's funny and thoughtful, Beautiful, and a great friend,' they all say and I smile at them.
'Thank you everyone!' I say and they smile at me.
'It's Okay, SA$$ (S-A-S-S),' they say and they help me up.
I actually avoided the bottom three.
The bottom three were actually: Paige Thomas, Cece Frey, and Beatrice Miller.
'Next performer going on to next week and avoid the bottom three is...' Dermot starts, I nod and look down and hold onto Bea's, Paige's, and Cece's hands tightly. I don't think my heart overbeated so fast!!!
'Serenity Stieneke!' Dermot says. My eyes widen and I start jumping up and down and bring Cece, Paige, and Bea into a group hug. As I walk off the stage I pray to God and high five some people in the front row.
Unknown POV
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
I have to believe that where the music is coming from will lead me.
So what else am I hearing?
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Again but in Harmony again.
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