felt alone in his arms; E.D

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A U T U M N

It was a warm summer day, I sat sipping an iced coffee while the boys packed the van boot. It was finally road trip time. Within the 3 days of waiting they had posted the roommate QnA and had filmed another video ready for Tuesday.

"Come on you ready A?" Grayson asked me as he retrieved me from inside.

"As ready as always"

I smiled as Grayson picked me to take me outside, whilst I complained about being tired.

"Wait before we go out to Ethan" He stopped and looked at me with a smile "Thank you" I wrapped my arms around him and held him in a soft hug.

"No need to thank me" he sighed as he planted a small kiss on my cheek.

"I love you, best friend"

Grayson dropped me at the door of the van, allowing me to get comfortable in my seat. Ethan sat down beside me and Grayson strapped himself in the front seat, starting to drive the car.

"You excited for the trip?" I asked Ethan, smiling. He shrugged.

"Oh come on baby, it is gonna be so fun" I giggled as his face lit up from the nickname.

Ethan stood up and pulled me up with him, holding me close by my waist. He slowly danced across the small area to beautiful people, our prom song.

"I love you so much Autumn" He whispered to me as we continued to dance. My cheeks flushed bright red as he pulled me closer by the waist. I looked up at him noticing how close we were. I gathered the same butterflies as prom night.

"I- I love you too" I felt a small tear run down my face, remembering the night and every emotion I felt.

"Hey baby don't cry" Ethan wiped my tear away

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A U T U M N ( F L A S H B A C K )

"so what did you need to speak about?" I asked Ethan as the cold nibbled away at my back.

Ethan's hands held onto my waist, making me gulp. I looked away as my cheeks flushed a dark crimson.

"Look, Autumn ever since I met you I knew you were different, you were so much funnier and better than any other girl I had ever met. I know sometimes I mess up and I fail you and those days you cry to Grayson instead of me but I need you to know that I am so madly in love with you and I wanted to make this moment special"

His words engulfed my brain making me freeze a little, smiling on the side of my lip. I glanced at the door, Grayson saying I love you while we danced together on the empty stage clinging onto my brain. I didn't respond.

"I understand" Ethan sighed deeply and froze just like me.

I smiled up at him and kissed him, his lips were so soft, so welcoming. I felt all the stars shining on us as we kissed, I backed up and smiled to him as his face lit up with excitement. He kissed me again. I moved closer to him, falling in love with him more every second. I glanced over at the door and saw Grayson's shoes run away as the door closed fastly. I pulled away feeling more guilty than ever.

"I got to go Ethan" I panicked ready to chase after Grayson.

"Before you go, Do you want to go out sometime"

I felt my heartache and guilt laced my bloodstream. I nodded my head.

My feet felt like they had been running for ages as my body circulated in goosebumps. I stopped in my tracks as I noticed Grayson sat on the curb outside of a convenience store. I entered the store and rushed as I grabbed all of his favourite snacks and drinks bringing them out to him.

"You okay Grayson?" I asked leaning my head on his shoulder, handing him his favourite things.

"I am fine, I will be fine. Nothing is wrong just leave the fuck alone okay?!" his voice raised as he wiped tears from his face, making me jump.

"Grayson look I am sorry okay? Don't be mad at me"

"I said I loved you man and you didn't even say it back and then I see you kissing my twin when you knew exactly how I felt. Leave me alone" I felt his heartbreak as his voice cracked causing more tears to flood. I didn't speak but held him in a soft hug.

"I will always love you, Grayson, you're my little goofball. Do not ever think I wouldn't love you" My voice muffled into his tuxedo. I felt multiple warm tears running down my back.

"You just aren't the one for me"