"We're nearly here" I hear Grayson shout from the front seat. I sigh happily and lay my head on Ethan's lap.
My head wondered places, remembering last night. Remembering what almost happened.
"Yay" I mumble softly sitting up onto Ethan's lap.
"You excited to get to the hotel?" He asked furrowing his eyes brow at me, I nod.
Ethan's eyes pierce through me, I feel vunerable and scared. He places his hand softly on my waist and kisses me smoothly. I kiss back.
I pull back and smile weakly at him, looking at the floor.
The car comes to an abrupt stop, making me fall back a little.
"Here" I hear Grayson shout, making me giggle a little.
Me and Ethan jump out of the car, grading each others hands. I looked up at the big building, it looked expensive. I gasped, removing me from Ethan's grip and hugging Grayson, then returning to Ethan.
"It looks beautiful" I almost squeal.
We all got booked into our rooms and began to unpack. I was sharing a room with Ethan and Grayson had his own room.
"Gosh this place is gorgeous" I sigh falling back onto the bed "Bless Grayson he's such a sweetheart.
Ethan just nodded and smiled unpacking his stuff. It was turning dark outside. Maybe 9 or 10 pm.
"You ready for dinner ?" Ethan asked me.
I shook my head, still in my sweatpants and tank top.
"I wanna look good for it" I said scavenging through my suitcase for the outfit and makeup I brought for the occasion.
I tried to keep it casual, slipping on a cropped shirt a black dress, high knee boots and a beret.
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I exited the bathroom and immediately noticed Ethan's eyes running up and down my body, making me feel self-conscious.
"Do I look bad" I said hiding behind a door.
"Of course not baby" I exited the room fully and he pulled me closer by the waist , kissing kind of harshly.
I moved closer to him, pressed up against him, kissing more passionately by the second.
Knock knock!
"We always get interrupted" Ethan mumbled with a smirk opening the door to reveal Grayson.
His eyes travelled up and down my body, just like Ethan yet Ethan's was full of love and Grayson's was full of lust.
"You got lip gloss on your mouth" Grayson laughed a little, talking to Ethan. "You guys ready for tea?"
I nodded, Grayson's eyes trailed up and down my body, staring at all my features making me blush slightly.
Why was I blushing?! Oh god help me!
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"Here's you table" the blonde skinny Instagram model waitress said, winking at Ethan. He threw an awkward smile at her and we began to look through the menu.
"I'll just have a salad" I whispered to Ethan and laid my head on the table. Grayson looked down at me noticing how out of character I was being. "And a water please"
"I'll have a vegan burger and coke" Grayson said smiling towards Ethan.
Ethan stood up with the menu, going to order the food for us. The waitress from earlier served him. She was smiling with her perfect teeth and giving him flirtatious looks.
"Look how pretty she is Grayson, Ethan's gonna leave me" I said trying not to cry " why am I so insecure"
"Nothing is wrong with you, you are perfect just the way you are. You are only insecure because you let yourself to be. When someone calls you beautiful listen to the compliment and accept it. I see all your beauty" Grayson said rubbing my hand with his thumb making me blush a little.
Ethan came back from the food counter, laughing and smiling causing Grayson to pull his hand away.
"She seemed nice" I said softly, looking at Ethan.
"Eh not really my type. Especially when I got a girl like you" Ethan nudged my arms jokingly and began to fidget with the table.
- "Thanks so much for taking us out for tea" Ethan said to Grayson, smiling properly for the first time in ages.
I felt my stomach plead me for food but I ignored it, I barely touched my salad that night.
"I wanna sleep" I mumbled into Ethan's arm "I'm so tired"
Ethan's arm cradled me, carrying me to the bedroom at the hotel. He placed me on the bed and tucked me in.
"I'm gonna go out and have a drink" Ethan said kissing my forehead and leaving, making me sigh.
I looked around the dark room, suddenly feeling untired and scared. I know I should trust Ethan but I lacked it on everyone recently, even myself.
I crawled out of bed and put on my pajamas staring at my figure in the mirror, hating it and remembering the waitress from earlier.
Warm tears streamed down my face making me struggle on breath, I felt my heart collapsing as I fell onto the bed, sobbing my eyes out.
I want to be perfect.
A soft knock landed on my door making me wipe away the tears on my face.
"Who is it" I said trying to avoid the break in my voice.
"Gray"
The door slowly opened as he used the spare key we lent him. He closed the door behind him and sat beside me on the bed, rubbing my back.
"What's a beautiful girl like you doing crying" his soft hands wiped away the rushing tears on my face "pretty girls like you don't deserve to cry"
My cheeks began to burn as the tears fought the sensation of the warmth.
"I'm not pretty though Grayson, I'm ugly and Ethan hates me and I don't know what to do with my life anymore" I sobbed into his shoulder. He held me close by my waist.
He held me as he rocked me back and forth, calming me down with his soothing words.
For the first time in a while I didn't feel alone in someone's arms.
