The Quiet Girl | Stanley Uris x Reader

die

song above reminds me of this chapter ^^
warning-suicide & abuse
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Y/N'S POV

I grasped my stomach as I was on the ground. The pain was overbearing as I actually noticed what was happening, the bleeding spilling from me. Oh God, not again.

There was yelling as they saw Ben collapse but they hadn't seen me yet. I let out a groan before saying my words very carefully, "Fuck all of you."

That got their attention. 

"What are you talking about Y/N?" Beverly yelled, dropping down to hold pressure on my stomach.

"You are all gonna leave me. Why didn't you tell me Stanley?" I said, looking up grasping my stomach.

"T-Tell you w-what?" He said stuttering, obviously hiding something.

"Thaat you were gonna kill yourself." The pain in my stomach was so excruciating it hurt to breathe.

Everyone stared at Stanley as he fiddled with his shirt collar. As his face turned dark red and the others were staring at him and his wrists as if they should've known just by looking at him.

I should've known just by looking at him.
I should've.

"Y/N, I can explain." Stanley said.

"No, you are all gonna die. You are all supposed to die, if not today, then this summer. I saw all of you die." I spoke carefully trying to keep my consciousness, but it obviously wasn't working.

Everything was going spotty and the flashlight was flickering making me dizzy.

My eyes rolled to the back of my head, my stomach pain was lessening by the second and I could hear Beverly's words telling me to stay awake but the darkness was so warm and it didn't hurt anymore. 

TIME SKIP

I awoke at my house. Oh no, at my house.

 I could smell my father's cologne as the heavy footsteps came rushing to my door. I quickly shut my eyes and tried to steady out my breathing so he wouldn't touch me. So he wouldn't do anything that even I would regret.

"My sweet bunny, what did you get yourself into?" His voice was raspy, not from crying but from yelling. Probably at Stanley or maybe at helpless Ben who was also bleeding out. 

Ben probably was okay. He had tough skin, tough mind, tough heart. The Losers better stick together, knowing them, they probably wouldn't. The fear that they went through, was one most people couldn't recover from.

His breath was close against my face and his hand gripped tight on my leg, a little too close to my hip but I should not expect less. I took a sharp breath in as his lips touched right below my earlobe. 

"Baby, you have to face me every once in awhile." My eyes opened slowly leaning my head away from him, not meeting his eyes. 

"Where are my friends? Where is Beverly?" I tried to get up, tried to move away from him to get back with my friends.

"Bunny, you aren't gonna see those stupid boys or that dumb lesbian ever again. Hell, they aren't gonna see each other ever again, that stuttering bitch punched the nerd. You are gonna stay with me until you get better and even then you aren't gonna speak to them." His voice was deep and his lips were touching my ear. 

Tears started to fill my eyes and it hurt to hold those tears back. "But I love them, I love him."
I stuttered out. I needed to convince him to let me see them again to let me see Stanley again, I needed to save him.

"Who do you love Y/N?" He questioned, his voice getting rougher by the seconds.

"Stanley. I-I love Stanley." My heart burned with something that could only be fear or maybe it was love by thinking of Stanley.
Was I in love?
I don't even know.

His hand was swiftly taken away from my leg and he pressed down on my stomach, leaning over my face making me press down further into my bed and I groaned at the bleeding that was obviously happening at that point. 

“Baby, you don't love him. You will never love him.” He stood up swiftly making me flinch. I sat up getting dizzier by the second, trying to chase after him, I reached out to touch his shoulder only for him to turn back around and slap me. I fell to the ground the pain of both my cheek and my stomach burning. My father looked down at me with scowling eyes and closed my door, locking it behind him. from the outside.

hii friends !! i heard you guys wanted another chapter so here it is :)) i will try to update this week or even tomorrow !! love you all xx