why him? why not me instead? maybe its 10 years of friendship you got together that we don't? maybe it's the long history of good & bad memories you got down the line that I can never compete with? thinking about it creates all these illustrations inside my head, true be honest you will be one of the biggest "what if" in my life.
what if I told you sooner before he came back into your life? what if I just had the courage to ignore the hate I might've gotten and took the risk? maybe that's what makes him special because he took the chance when he had it.
But I was a fool for letting my fears stop me but you know what's the biggest what if?
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that no matter what I said or how I made this huge grand gesture I will never be enough for you. you would never fall for me because I can't compete with him. He is someone way special to you, somehow I understood that. Yet I felt threatened and envious of that...no matter how much he hurt you, he still found his way back into your heart.
and how could a girl like me ever come close to that?
d.lui
YOU ARE READING
a collection of everything & anything.
Poetrymy feelings. "to all the people who made me feel this type of way; without you this won't have come to life."
