Love Does Cost A Thing

Book two: Chapter sixteen

Zuri's POV

I was very happy to see Lui at the door after hearing it ring, he was fit judging by his appearance and presence at my door, he was discharged. I had missed my baby so much but I had to keep my act in check lest those people saw it and come after him and do something bad to him or worse kill him.

I dropped my smile, intentionally looked past him and made it look like I was expecting someone when in reality, it was him all along.

My baby isn't dumb, he saw it and I told him the truth but not all the truth. He had missed me as much as I did, I hadn't even closed the door when he pulled me to him and kissed me hungrily.

As it got hungrier, I got more weaker but I had to snap back to reality which is I have to be away from him. It tore my heart pushing him off me and being quiet all through out when we proceeded to the living room but it was all for him, it was for his own benefit and if I had to make sure he was safe, I had to be cold.

Those people didn't leave me with any choice and I'm now confused more than ever, while on the couch with Lui, I had a message from them and I had to leave him and go check. They sent a message, the contents telling me what I had to do to get him to hate me and finally leave his life forever.

Now I'm at work, confused asf as I stare blankly at the wall though I have work piled on my desk, I haven't been able to do anything since I came here today.

A thought occurred to me that maybe I should call Fia. If I'm going to pull through with the plan they gave me, I have to make sure someone closer to him will look after him better in my absence and I trust no one else than Fia, she really loves him.

I took out my phone and dialed her number before pressing it to my ear. She picked it up on the first ring but before she could say anything, I beat her to it. "Fia, please meet me at Deli's Cafe in some minutes, I beg of you." I said, trying my best not to breakdown on the phone and disconnected the call.

I breathed in and out to calm myself as I started at the phone, precisely my wallpaper which is a picture of Lui and I cuddling in our bed at his. Looking at it and what I'm about to do coming into memory makes my heart pinch and twitch as it feels like it's breaking into tiny million pieces.

Please forgive me Lui.

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Three days later: Past

I stared at my phone which was beside me on the bed. It was ringing yet I'm not making any attempt to pick it now or later if it continues to ring and I know who the caller is.

Fresh new tears begun to roll on my cheeks as I broke into a sob. It was Lui calling, he's been calling for the past hour and just like past two weeks, I haven't been picking up.

I can't pick it up because I've started pulling through my plans so far I haven't gone over to his house to stay night and during the day, I refuse any form of intimacy just like in the office where I make sure there are bouquets of fresh roses waiting on my desk for me every morning. I make it in such a way Lui sees it and reads the card as well but he hasn't asked me about it, I know sooner or later he will.

I hate myself for doing all this, I die within me every second of the day but I have no choice, my hands have been tired. He wouldn't believe me if I tell him and if I things will get messy, he will be the victim and I don't want that, I can bear anything but not his death.

I'm torturing both Lui and I but it's for a better cause. "That's what you say to make yourself feel better!" I cried out as I slapped my cheeks in pain before I wiped the tears spilling away.

I got up from up from bed when an idea occurred to me, I left the room, going towards the living room where the rest of the family are after, taking my phone along.

Kai was over at home, he and Azzy are in that part of their relationship where they can't go a day without both of them seeing each other so he comes here a whole lot. 

"Hey Kai Kai, can I have your phone please."

"Yeah sure."

"Thanks." I gave him a small smile seeing he was still looking at my face and walked away from him. He nudged Azzy and the two diverted their attention away from the food in front of them to look at me, with concern written all over their face.

I get why they're looking at me like that. I look like crap, yeah with my puffy, red and swollen eyes and tear stained face, I get it but by now I don't care about how I look. What's the fun in it if I dress to impress Lui but I'm avoiding him?

I punched him his passcode, going to his call log. I dialed my number and pressed the dial button, calling myself.

And when it ended I called myself again, picking up on mine just to get my number engaged, in case Lui calls, it will be busy. He will know I've seen his call but haven't called back and I'm rather talking to someone else.

I'm leading him on to believe in a lie but what can I do? When it is all for a good cause.

I fell back in my seat with a heavy heart and covered my face with my hand to prevent them from seeing the tears I was about shed.

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I might do a double update to make up for this short chapter😊