Nedgene in 𝓡𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓪𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓖𝓻𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽

The hell-

Great news. I knew how to make this story more diary-like! So if you the previous chapters doesn't have that diary-like flare, I hope this one does.

This is not right.

I found my journal Mr. Flich's desk in the lost&found section, how funny.

And then there was a fucking note in my journal like some douchebag read it and then write IN my journal all those excuses they could think off

This is not right

This is not fucking right

First of: Who the hell would read my journal?

I mean, yes I am aware that I was delusional when I was in the mood to write; if I die in fame and readers from around the world would read this journal remnant that was translated into 10+ languages, they would be cringe to even finish the book. Yes, I knew that my writings were horrible and looked like it was written by a 14 year old girl, not a very good self esteem, yeah?

Anyhow, as I was flipping my pages trying to find traces of tampering my journal like insult writings, dirty marks, and stuffs like that, I noticed a paper with foreign hand writing titled on the first line of the page

"Excuse me"

Well that some shitty excuse to make

I was reading the "excuse" thingy, so this person was really into my stuffs like that, are they some kind of delusional people?

Oh wait, they also called me out for being like that, well done Eugene, well done

Then I noticed that they were...interested in me? Weird...they started to talk about how my idea of "Hogwarts stereotypes" were very "fascinating" and my style of writing was very like a "well written biography", it was creepy to read.

To be fair, the Hogwarts stereotype was just something that I have been thinking off for the past years. Something that I noticed while cramming my head with all those history lessons and the frequents time in the library. To be fair I didn't have very much idea into it, but there are things that I learned from it:

- Gryffindors were portrayed as the brave, the bold, and the all time loving hero. The downside is they can be arrogant, being held too much Pride. Gryffindors were often biased and they were on top of everything: war heroes, leaders, and lovable historical figures

- Ravenclaws were portrayed as the wise, the clever, and the wit. If you are a Ravenclaw, the specturm of your personality could be from serious and genius like Rowena - to creative and laid-back Lovegood. Now not all Ravenclaws were supposed to be geniuses, but their house just represents that. I would love to be friend with a Ravenclaw, heck, I even have one of them as my childhood friend (lil Zach)

- Hufflepuffs were portrayed as the hardworkers, dedicated, and loyal. They were like the humanity moral of Hogwarts. Hufflepuff are like those gentle friends that you could have, really they the real deal when it comes to friends, and massive models when it comes to Cedric Diggory. My friend Keith was the definition of joy and pure, and he was a Hufflepuff! Real though, Hufflepuffs can be very dangerous if you messed up, but this is "portraying"

And then the black sheep of them all, Slytherin, my oh so dear house. Slytherins were the ambitious, shrewd, cunning + that evil thingy opinion that people were screaming and horrified at. Slytherin was some call "misunderstood" and "redeemable" by some people that longing for a change for Slytherin, but I think it's best that we stay in the dark side, because it gives the true Slytherin kind of aura and atmosphere. Well of course, not all Slytherin were that evil and suspicions, a handful of them are pretty rad like Kelsey. Still, rumors spirals, and no matter what we do, Slytherins will always be under the name of villainous and dangerous, unless some kind of fantasy hero showed up, like a hybrid of Slythedor here and there.

I have been loved under this kind of "rule" for many years was because of the area they lived in. Fathers and mothers were hyping their children to be the next warrior, descend wise man, or a humble person who could bring happiness to the next generation; nobody wants a snake in their homes. My home was like that but more strict. They warned their little kids about the dark side of the green house and all the kids were delusional and mean there; at first I thought that I would NEVER be a Slytherin, and here I am. While both my sisters were Ravenclaws, I was the black sheep of all, wearing the green scarf like a  permanent scar and the green tie like a blade that would decapitate my head. I never come to my house for any breaks as a Slytherin, so I spend my holidays in my own dorm when Ryan was away (with his boyfriend), for Summer breaks I went to Keith's house most of the time, they were really kind and felt like a family to me.

Anyways, as I was reading through the lines of this "Excuse" letter they wrote on my journal, I saw interesting thoughts that I would never came up as an idea of my own, "Hogwarts box"? Sounds interesting. I guessed that it calls "box" because of how "confined" the Hogwarts houses were treated as? I don't know. But, what I read is that they were really into my stuffs and they also came up with the same concept of deja vu and how limited their is to express our personality in a Hogwarts house. This loop occurs to Hogwarts like this: a hero walks into a school like a normal person, chaos happens, and then that person is crowed hero. Yep, that happens to every single chosen one, well because they are chosen ones. I don't know what that detail helps in the Hogwarts Box, but I love it.

 I realized that the deeper I fall into their words, the more interested I am. I came to love this guy and his ideas as his Ravenclaw friend. I'm really facsinated by their words, I don't really care that they read my journal too much now, well I will confront them if I found out, but this is just mind blowing to find someone has similar thoughs as I am, I thought I was the only crazy one here!

Now my sexuality is gay, so this is my attitude to this person right now:

If this was a guys, I'll be straight up dating him

If this was a girl, I will be more than happy to be her best friend, and I do think I'll give up Kelsey if I met her, but I do think Kelsey will be more than exicited to meet her

If this was a non binary, we'll be drunk buddies, period.

I mean, there just no way this person would be anyone bad-

Your journal is awesome, Senior Eugene.

From your Gryffindor 3rd year and pro Quidditch player

Ned Fulmer

Fuck

What the fuck?

Fulmer? The guy who annoyed me weeks ago? The guy who flirted with me weeks ago? That 3rd year Gryffindor?

I take my words back, I'm not going to date him.

Actually, hold up. I do think that there's something about him that I been noticing. He was like other Gryffindors if paid attention enough. Well he was kind of that active and jolly kind of personality, but Fulmer is actually intellegent, sociable, loyal, and a bit secretive at time, like a hybrid of Ravenclaw-Hufflepuff instead of a true Gryffindor

LIke I mentioned, I am skeptical of Gryffindors, not being a completely jerk to him

Regardless of him being all smart and secretive, he is the less likely person that I would think to write this enitre thing that keeps me interested?

What the hell is this feeling? 

Did I...just be interested to Fulmer?

Then again, I did blushed when he flirted me....

That some cliche bullshit if I do say so myself, well then, I don't have a crush on him, but I do need to talk to him about this whole thing tomorrow, or maybe next week if I'm nervous or lazy.

Then I noticed a line on top of it:

"you can punch me in the face if you want to"

Well, I might as well do that when I got to him, just you wait Fulmer.

Also, happy Pride and belated Juneteenth everyone! Hopefully this attempted-gayness story filled with confusions, secrets, and not really good dramas story will bring you to the mood! And spread the love everyone!