Broken

Chapter 1.

Day after day my head reminds me of what a coward I was, and the bad memories of my ex boyfriend exploding in my head making it  ache.

I walk down to the grave with a bunch of flowers and sit down beside the gravestone.

Kieran Ludwig

1996-2014

I put the flowers on his grave and sit down putting my legs in a comfortable way.

I clear my throat and start thinking of what to tell him, what to start with.

"Um, hi Kieran

I miss you as always since you left me eight months ago, I couldn't sleep any night thinking about you and what happened.

You didn't deserve to die like that, you had a beautiful life with lots of people who loved you including me.."I said, hot tears started running down my cold face.

"Since you died people looked at me with pity, guys would hit on me and look at me with a lust look, I want you back Kieran! I miss you protecting me from this kind of guys!.."I felt my throat hurt but I couldn't stop.

"I miss our nights together when I couldn't sleep and you would hug me and sing me in the ear untill I slept, do you know what you left behind?.." I started raising my voice furry boiling in my veins.

"You left your mother suffering! Your sister crying her eyes out, the school musical without the best singer, the school swim team without the leader, Me without you!!" I started punching his gravestone bruising my knuckles.

Blood started dripping down my new cuts, my body started shaking sobs leaving my guts.

"Come back Kieran!! Please come back"I started crying harder and couldn't stop myself.

I felt the wind blowing my hair off my face and I looked at the sky,the sun brushing my flashed red cheeks.

I took this as if he heard me and told me that everything will be alright, so I stop crying and punching and just breath in and out.

I got up slowly trying to regain my balance and then smile weakly at the grave turning my back slowly and walking out of the grave yard.
Never gonna forget you Kieran Ludwig.