The Love Within

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Excuse any mistakes
Just a filler

Toni

I've been home for a while and Janet has yet to leave my side. She hugged up on me every minute, I love it but sometimes it was too much. She wouldn't even let me go outside to get the mail alone.

"Princess?"

"Yea baby."

"You know I love and appreciate all that you've done thus far but baby you don't have to come with me everywhere I go."

"I'm just trying to—."

"Protect me, yea I know. Janet no matter what you do I'm always gonna turn around and protect you."

"Toni I just don't wanna something to happen to you. I'm scared honestly."

"I know come here." I pulled her into me holding her tightly.

"I've never been that scared. Hearing you telling me you had to go, Toni I got so fucking scared. That desk clerk didn't even make the damn call she watched you die right at my arms and I lost it. I mean straight went fool and bashed her head into the desk over and over and over, I broke her arm then threatened to chop her up into piece and feed her to the gators." I didn't even know all that but for some strange reason I got turned on. I didn't say anything I just stared in her eyes, looking between her eyes and her lips.

"Stop. You know what you doing."

"I do?"

"Yea you do."

"Well if I do then you should know what's suppose to follow."

"I do?"

"You do?" She smiled leaning in as we kissed passionately.

"I love Toni, I just don't want nothing to happen to you, to us. I can't lose you." Tears fell from her eyes again

"I can't lose you either. I love you."

"You mind showing me? I need you, I need to feel you."

"I don't know Janet."

"Why?"

"It's just my wounds I—." Janet took off my shirt and kiss the one that had a exited through the front under my rib cage. Then kissed the one in my back.

"They're beautiful and I love them, just like I love you."

"J—."

"Toni shush, seems to me you need to feel me instead of me feeling you. Come here." She pulled me into her kissing me again.

"Is that the reason why you wouldn't let me touch you before why you wouldn't touch me?"

"Yea."

"Baby you know what I'm about to say don't you?"

"I do."

"Then I don't have to say it, right."

"No."

"Ok, all this time you've gave your love to me. Can I just this once, give my love to you?" She sat up in my lap as I kissed the top of her breast.

"Toni."

"Hey they were directly in my face I mean we making eye contact what else you want me to do."

"I'll show you instead." She kissed on my neck holding my hands down. She found my spot taking a little longer on there getting exactly what she wanted from me.

"Baby..." I moaned as she went lower. She unbuttoned my jeans sliding her small hand down in them.

"Daddy, I just wanna please you? Can I do that?"

"J, you can't me handle me like. Just get up give me a couple of kisses and lights out."

"But baby."

"Janet no." I pulled her out and she just stared at me. Something in her eyes changed she got off me going into another room.  I sighed buttoning up my pants going to her.

"J?" I opened the door as she sat at the edge of the bed in a red lace set that was surely tempting the hell out of me.

"All I wanna do is love you and you won't let me, why? Is it someone else? Like all these months you've pleased me with utter word of asking for some in return, why? I want to love mentally and physically Toni, why won't you let me?" She looked up at me with water in her eyes, I didn't think it actually bothered her but it did.

"No baby there's no one else, I promise you that."

"Well what is it Toni? I'm not going to hurt you if that's what you think."

" I know that baby, I'm just not ready."

"But baby, it's going on a year. When are you ever gonna be ready. I've gave myself to you, can't you give yourself to me?"

"Janet you know why."

"I do but Toni I'm here to love you not hurt you. Not to take advantage but love you and love on you. The love within me, within us is so great baby I can't help to want to spread all over. Please baby, can I just show you the way? My way, my unconditional love for you?"  She got up reaching out for my hand I took it. I couldn't say no to her, especially not with her looking like this. Maybe it was time for to let go of my past and just let her have her way, what could go wrong.

I kissed her picking her up as we knocked everything over on the dresser as I sat her on top.

"Daddy can I have you?"

"You can have me, all of me." She didn't even unbuttoned my pants this time she just slid her in right past my boxers and straight into me. She leaned up to kiss on my neck, sucking on my skin.

"Shit." Like I thought she was bluffing when I be fingering her but honestly the shit felt good.

She sped up getting in a little deeper. I held on to her waist pulling her closer to me.

"Is all this for me." I felt a weird feeling in the pits of my stomach.

"J stop." I tried to push her away before it was too late but she didn't listen, and just like that I was on her hand. She pulled her hand out grinning then put her fingers in her mouth to taste me.

"Damn, why you keep that from me baby. You're too sweet, when I go to the dentist just know you laying if I have a cavity." I just smiled at her, thinking that was it.

"Aye, what you doing? You not getting off that easy, hell no. All that shit you put me through, I might not take a strap to your ass but baby you bout to feel and all of me...."

Pt2 or no?