Pleasant Addiction

chapter-one

Ferra's POV:
I was raised in New Britain,Connecticut.A city like any other you see drugs,street crimes,abuse.
I cannot do so far I have shamed,embarrassed and at times stigmatized.Even today,years later,Ifear retribution,liability and even stigmatized. I. was depressed more than before.
Because of the addiction some of my pains got relieved. Iwas never a drinker nor I used drugs socially.
Then one evening when I was finding it hard to stay awake to study organic chemestry exam, one of my friend suggested me to some stimulants that were available in sample form. The results were perfect! But there were so many other solutions for my problem! But I was too slow motioned. Stimulants are drugs that speed up the activity of the central nervous system. I began using pills,rather innocently,whenever I needed boost.
To me,its was like a cup of coffee!even better!.I soon learned the pills were available on Internet.I was out of control,I used to order pills every hours,even my balance was poor.
I then used my mom's credit for that used. My friends and family admired me always.I never informed them about these stuffs and health.I was respected in the community.I always enjoyed my status and felt it was deserved.

Ferra's POV:
My neighbour once saw me lying bed unconscious and was sure about me that I was a drug addicter.And then one day the Drug Enforcement Agency came to the door.The reality of the situation took months to sink in.The shame and magnitude of my troubles was immeasurable.I had to cope with the personal matters.
Do you think the story will be confined between me and the Enforcement Agency???
No WAAY!!My mom was informed about the incident.

After that,all my bad days was counted by me.My mother did not paid my fees!My mom took away hers and mines credit cards!I had to listen to their restrictions!I had to follow their orders!They even took away my electronics!
I had a boyfriend.I took my friends cell phone to be connected withmy boy friend.But how could this be continued!I also had some egos!I had also strong personality!So I broke up with him.
Depresion was the only path I could follow.I laid bed all day.I had my pills every hours.My health was getting bad.I was motionless and dizzy.I had ciggaretts all day and night.I had bears and pills then again bears and pills.That was only my schedule.I was no longer the icon of success.I was now now tained,not only infront of my neighbours but also for the first time in my own.There was no mention of my recovery from my illness.What was to be a day of celebration had become a day of pain and shame.
I always hoped of better future and present.Every thing was meaningless to me!
Before having an affair with Nate;we were friends,you can say even more than a friend.He was my only person whom I trusted a lot.Our story was like any others story.Common but rare!.His dad is my close relative.Once we had a summer vacation;His family and my uncles family was warmly invited.We had a cheerful picnic.A big hall room with twenty five sofa's,royal paintings.Nate's sister,Lia was my music partner,lab partner and bestfriend.While carrying an excuse of taking notes from Lia I used to meet Nate.
On that summer vacation,we had a large family gathering.My cousin,Anthony was a bad boy.You can say..He wasn't ashamed of flirting with me even with my mom. But Anthony always had a soft corner for Lia.He had a deep crush on Lia. I never saw Anthony irritating Lia like he always did to me.
When we,kids,gathers in my room and disscuss about current lifes and feelings,I used to observe that Anthony spents time with only Lia,he only talks with Lia .It felt like there were no one except them we were just like invisible like the air. He used to stop flirting with me whenever Lia joins us.Anthony was a smart guy,he was good looking,cunning but his weakest point was Lia.He was always in so nervous of sharing and expressing his feelings for Lia.On that night;we all had our dinner in my room.(Nate,Anthony,Lia and me).

Ferra's POV:
......on that night;we all had our dinner in my room(Nate,Anthony,Lia and me).Nate was always delicated on me.Our love story began from a summer party.I was gloomy,melancholy and sluggish. Lia introduced Nate for the first time there.We both had a huge gossip.
At the first impression,I acted static,dull and stagnant.But within a few moment I was over him.For me,he was totally a different person.I was over him and I didn't even realized that.I became chatty,garrulous with him.