Pleasant Addiction

Chapter_nine

Ferra"

The wind blew hard. Though I was wearing my fur coat but still I was shivering. It may be because of the activities of Ben. I felt fluttering. My brain stunned and my eyes stupefied into his eyes for a while. He came closer to my ears and whispered"I am not that type of man that you think of me"
I was speechless because I was nervous and stunned.My head became blank. I ran into my room without glancing him for once.Memories haunted my head.The same way Nate used to treat me.The world isn't cruel,some shits made it cruel.I didn't noticed Ben following me to my bedroom from behind.
"Ferra!Look !!.You miss being in love,you miss being someone's favorite hello and his hard goodbye.You don't miss him,remember the nights you spent feeling like you never mattered. Remember how lonely you felt even when he was around you. Remember how your heart still aches when you remember how they made you feel.Darling,I want you to remember that your past shouldn't be alive right now making you ache to the point of wanting what's gone.!" It made me dazed for a while.

"I want you to know that it's okay to miss the past,that you can let someone go and still love them with every atom of your soul.I want you to understand that,it's okay to feel lonely and sometimes it's okay to hurt when you remember how they once loved you and now,all the beautiful memories became painful to remember. I hope you won't mistake your loneliness for his absence. When you feel this feeling creeping inside your bones,remember that you don't long for him. You don't need him. You long to be loved.You long to be craved."He justified with a smile.I was staggered at that moment.
"Is he okay!!"I murmured inside my self.
He came closer to me and kept him hand on my cheeks. My eyes widen,like if i saw something abnormal but that  was nothing like that.

"Remember the reasons why they left you. Darling,the sun still shines on the dead crops,and so,it's okay to love even the ones who are gone.what's not okay is wanting to go back. What's not okay is still beating yourself for  what's  gone. I know you're feeling empty,like a deep whole within that can never be filled. You feel as if something is missing,you feel like your smiles are empty. I want you to know that it's okay to feel this way,the healing takes time."He again justified with a smile.
The most interesting and handsome part of his face is his eyes and dimples.
He came closer. He runs the backs of his fingers across my cheekbone. His words feel like they penetrate the walls of my chest and all the air is let out of my lungs. I close my eyes when his breath grazes my jaw. He's taking advantage of the privacy and my weakness and I want to punch him for it.
He still wants to touch me like it's a privilege. I'm being supported by a wall behind me,but still  when his hand drops to my thigh and his fingers being slowly raking up my skirt,I feel like I'm about to crash straight to the floor.
There's so much that needs to be discussed between us,but for whatever reason, my body wants my mouth to stay shut, so his hand will continue moving. No one makes me feel as desirable as Ben does. I still hate him.
The way he looks at me the way he touches me,the way he makes it feel as if  my sears are an improvement rather than a flaw. It's hard to say no to his feeling,no matter how hurt I've been.
"Hey!..." 
I whispered,not so much in protest as intended. He buries his face against my neck and breathes me in, I forget everything I was about to protest. My head drops back against the wall, and then his hand slides around to the back of my thigh.His fingers graze the edge of my belt and when I feel them slip just beneath the hem,my whole body shivers. New type of feeling I never felt before,literally. I feel like I can't even stand upright anymore. I should be embarrassed.
He pulls back,just a little bit,so that he can glance over his shoulder.I don't know who or what he's looking for, but when he sees no one behind us,he reaches to the right of me-to a door.He pulls on the handle and it relents.
Ben doesn't waste a second.He grabs me by the waist and pushes me towards the door, into the dark room, and the the door closes behind us,muffling the sound of the music. Now, I can hear how hard I'm breathing. Panting, really. But so is he. I can hear him in front of me,but I can't see him. It's pitch black,and the absence of the wall behind me and him in front of me makes me feel empty.But then his hands are back on my waist.
"Guest room"He says,pushing me until my back is at the door.Then I can feel his breath against my lips,followed closely by his mouth as it brushes against mine. As soon as I feel it-the surge of electricity shoots from his mouth to every nerve in my body.
"Its like owning a thousands of lottery within one seconds!!"He says.
He drops his forehead to the side of my head and I hear him laughing quietly. His mouth rests against my ear and I swear I can hear the smile in his voice when he says"God.I've missed you so damn much "
I feel behind me for the door handle.When I find it, I push against Ben's chest and pull the door open.I slip outside the door against my will or satisfaction....
A:N
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