If you want the rainbow,you gotta put up with the rain❤️Ferra,marijuana addicted,finds difficulties on the way to her dreams and relations ,due to her addiction she was sold,harassed and abused.But the future was written and she got her freedom and...
My stomach growls,reminding me that I never even ate dinner last night. I quietly roll out of bed and search for my clothes.I don't want to turn on the lights to find my shirt, so I walk to Ben's closet to search for a t-shirt or something to throw on while I go raid his refrigerator.But then I remembered his fridge was empty from last night. So I thought I would take a shower. I made sure to lock the door before getting inti the shower. Not that I wouldn't want to take shower with him,but Im just not at that point yet. To me, showering with someone registers higher on my scale for potential humiliation than most things. The older I get, the more apprehensive I become at the thought of losing my virginity. Perhaps, Im being a bit melodramatic,but whatever. Im too nervous to get out of the shower even though I rinsed the conditioner out of my hair several minutes ago. I have no idea what Ben's expectations are for tonight-After I dry off,I pull his shirt over my head. I look in the mirror and admire the way it hangs pff my shoulders. I have never worn another guys tshirts before. Not even Nate's. I've always wondered if it felt as good as I imagined it would. It does. I turn out the lights and open the door. His lamp is on and he's lying on the bed,facing the center of it.He's kicked his covers onto the floor and is wearing nothing but his socks and pair of boxers. I stand here and admire him for a moment.Since his eyes are closed. He might be sleeping. Though I don't support him through my expressions but from inside he won me. It feels like I am dependent on him. Tonight's for him,only him,because I know he's hurting. I'll do what I can to insure he gets the best night to sleep he's ever had.I walk to the lamp and switch it off and then pock his covers up off the floor.Cover us both as I lie down next to him with my back to his chest. I try not to awake him as I adjust my pillow. "Oof!!!" I roll at the sound from his voice. It's dark so I wasn't sure was he awake or talking in his sleep."what is it"I whispered. I feel an arm go around my waist,and he pulls me closer. "I left the light on so I could see you walk out of the bathroom wearing my tshirt, but you take really long,I think I fell asleep." I smile"I am still wearing it .You want me to turn the light on??" "Fuck!Yes please ".I laugh and roll over toward the lamp. I switch it on and then face him again. "Stand up"he says, lifting up onto his elbow.I stand up and his eyes never meet mine. They're roaming over my thighs,my hips,my breasts. I do t mind the he isn't looking at my face. His eyes drag up mu body until they meet mine.Ben smiles lazily. He lifts a finger and points at me"Give me my shirt back " "Now??"I asked "Right now!!Before turning off the lights take it off thats mine."I begin to reach for the lamp,he jumps up and pulls it up without hesitation,yanking it off my head. COMPLETELY EXPOSED His eyes reads every curve of my body,before he lets his shaky breath. "Holy Shit"he mutters....
