This Was Never A Roleplay

Day 21 - December 26

Feeling like a loser,

Feeling like a bum,

Sitting on the outside,

Observing the fun,

Yeah I feel it coming on,

When I've been static for too long,

And an explosion comes in time,

Before I go and cross the line,

Forgo family, forgo friends,

It's how it started, how it ends,

I can't open up and cry,

'Cause I've been silent all my life,

Oh, I get dark oh and I'm in hell,

I need a friend, oh but I can't yell,

Yeah, I'm no good, no good to anyone,

'Cause all I care about is being number one,

One track mind like a goldfish,

Stuck inside my Petri dish,

I can't breathe and I can't smile,

This better be worth my while,

They say you used to be so kind,

I never knew you had such a dirty mind,

Well, I went to the doctors believing,

The devil had control over me,

And I was finding it hard to breath in,

Finding it hard to fight the feeling,

I feel numb most of the time,

The lower I get the higher I'll climb,

And I will wonder why,

I got dark only to shine,

Looking for the golden light,

Oh it's a reasonable sacrifice,

Burn, burn, burn bright,

Burn, burn, burn bright,

I look myself in the face,

And whisper "I'm in the wrong place",

Is there more to lose than gain,

If I go on my own again? (On my own again)

Inside the outsider (on my own again),

Inside the outsider (on my own again),

Inside the outsider (on my own again),

Inside...

All I know is I cannot pretend,

So I'm sitting on the outside again.