Friendship, Love And Hate

Chapter 19 <I forgive you>

Me and Aaron decided to meet up in a park. It was already dark out and I was sitting on a bench waiting for him. It was kind of pathetic knowing that I couldn't deal with my problems alone. I didn't need Aaron to say anything to me or do anything. I just wanted him to be near. He wouldn't even need to speak at all.

I hear footstep coming from behind me. I expected to see just Aaron there. I didn't have any time to ask when Aaron started explaining "I heard you two had a fight so I brought Riley along. You two are friends and you should probably make up as soon as possible." He explained and I walked up to Riley taking her in a big hug. Aaron and Riley were acting like high school ending was the end of the world.

"You know that I just care about you right?" I asked speaking in her hair.

"I know. But please don't worry about me. I don't want that." She said and I didn't argue any further. I broke the hug and walked up to Aaron.

"Thanks for coming" I extended my arms asking for a hug. He didn't hesitate one bit and pulled me in a tight hug. "Call me anytime you need someone to talk to." He broke the hug to take my face in his hands. "I will always be here when you need to" he said whispering so only I could hear.

"All right. Let's get this shit out of the way" Riley said sitting down and pulling us with her "what's wrong Tori?" She asked.

I big sigh escaped me. "My mom and sister came back"

"Oh" Riley said instantly. "Well that must suck." Yup it sucks a lot. It sucks so much that I almost hate that they are here.

"How did it went?" Aaron asked. This was the side of Aaron that I loved. When he wasn't arguing and being cold. But just being nice. And asking a simple question.

"They are my family and I love them, but I don't want them in my life." I laughed "god I am such a horrible person" how can one hate his family that much.

"You're not" Riley assured me "they did a horrible thing by leaving. And even I am mad at them." Riley said and that made me laugh.

A moment of silence were around us. "How are you feeling?" Aaron asked again.

I didn't thought about what was I feeling or what should I be feeling. "I don't know...anger maybe? Sadness. I don't know." Most of the times I have trouble explaining in words how I am feeling and I hate that I am not knowing such a thing about myself.

"Hard to identify what emotions are you feeling. When you are feeling too much. Huh." Aaron stated looking in a distance. Wise words I may say. Aaron knows a lot about life. He had some great quotes up his sleeves. The quotes I had never heard and quotes that were so deep it made me believe every word and not forgetting them for weeks.

"You guys maybe want to go to that coffee place?" I asked them. I really didn't want this night to be just about me being depressed again.

"Yea sure. I could use a warm cup of cocoa. "Riley said. Aaron drove us there since he had car with him.

We entered the coffee place. And there were couple other familiar people.one person was my physics teacher, sitting with a women, I assume his wife. One person was Simon, he glared at me for split second but we are just strangers. One person was Liam that I noticed. I am not mad at him anymore. I should but I'm not. Kind of weird actually. And just to be clear. Liam was never the only reason I wanted to kill myself. It was all the small things combined until there was no other place and I was about to explode. To this day I think if Aaron wouldn't come would I do it. Would I have the guts to do it? The selfishness of doing it.

"Hey I'm going to call someone real quick" Aaron said and walked away from us while we took a seat at one of the booths.

Riley ordered herself cocoa and I got tea. Since Riley knows Aaron best she got him cacao as well.