Friendship, Love And Hate

Chapter 11 <Don't say anything>

Walking to school as usual I went to the maple three. No matter how shit I felt I always went there. Sometimes being with my friends made me forget my problems sometimes not.

I plopped down next to Simon. I would have sat next to Nora but Alex was sitting by her other side. Alex looked so calm like nothing had happened and so did Nora. If I didn't know any better I'd say Nora and Alex have the most vanilla relationship I've seen. They always seemed so calm and happy and even now they were. I guess nothings ever as it seems.

I didn't even tried to greet them, I felt completely drained after yesterday. I haven't really slept, I spent the night watching Lucifer series. But now I understand that I don't remember single episode because my mind always wondered to grandma, mom, dad, Veronica, Liam... at least today I need to speak with Liam and try to figure out what is happening. Even if he doesn't want to see me anymore I need him to say that so I stop trying and get back to my pretend love with my crush Liam again. I just hope everything goes back to normal again, I thought holding on to my rose necklace that Liam gifted me. And even if he doesn't want to see me anymore. Do I need to give the necklace back? I mean won't that be just awkward?

I didn't pay much attention to what was going on with my friends. I heard a couple laughter's and that's that... it didn't seem like they were talking about anything important just everyday gossip so I didn't even bother myself.

Finally when it was time to go to classes I went to biology but Simon caught up to me and spoke "you look bad" he pointed out.

"Gee thanks" I say sarcastically, I know I did, I didn't get any beauty sleep and it shows.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

I really didn't want to talk about it. "I'm fine" I simply answer still walking to class.

"MH" he nods and drops the subject and walks the opposite direction. So easily just drops it. Maybe I would want that for change someone would care enough so they stay and try to figure out no matter how tall my wall is.

In the classes nothing interesting happened. After Biology I had class with Mr. White. Usually Liam would be here next to me. But still there was no sign of him. Mr. White talked about environment n stuff like that. I didn't really listen I just occasionally wrote something down my notepad.

It felt nice that Riley was here. Even if we didn't sit close it felt good to be in this class, I feel I can be myself with her. She was always easy to talk to it's like I didn't need to hide anything because she wouldn't judge.

But still something was off. It was the set being me. It was empty. And it was my fault. Even if Aaron said it wasn't I know it was? If I would shut my mouth he would be here. And that's one reason why I am not sleeping.

Finally my prayers have been listened and the bell rang. Everyone tried to get out as fast as possible. I wasn't rushing though, in fact I was the last one to exit. But Mr. White called out "Victoria. Can you come for a second" he said from his desk and stood up coming in front.

"You've been acting..." he looked for right words" self-isolating yourself again" he pointed out.

Mr. White was one of few people who actually knew the situation with my family. "My grandma came by" I explain "it wasn't very pleasant visit"

Mr. White sat on his table. "What did she want?" He asked.

I sighted "a forgiveness. I think. But she didn't ask she just kept saying that she has only good intentions with us."

"And what do you think her intentions are?" He asked.

"She tried to take us away, she doesn't have good intentions" I reasoned maybe a little harshly but I wasn't yelling.