Jealousy (z.s.)

|stress|

Once they got to the venue, Harry was still pretty shaken up. The only thing running through his mind was what he was gonna say to Louis and Liam.

They were all getting dressed and getting their hair done when Niall pulled Harry aside.

Niall: "Zayn told me what happened, how are you?"

Harry: "I'm fantastic"

Niall could sense Harry's sarcasm

Niall: " I know this sucks haz, but you've gotta do it at some point."

Harry: "I understand that, everyone has told me that. I fucking get it. That doesn't change the fact that I'm the one in this position and you're not...it's easy for you to say all this shit because in the end you've still got all of the people that mean the most to you in your life, and by tonight...I won't."

Niall took a step back because he knew everyone's attention was now on them.

Niall: "I'm sorry. You're right, I don't get it because I'm not in your position...but you got yourself in this position Harry. So don't lash out on me for trying to help."

Harry sighed and without saying anything else he left the room for some fresh air.

Zayn noticed but he thought that there wasn't anything he could do, until Louis spoke up.

Louis: "hey Z, can you go check on him for me?"

Louis was in the middle of getting his hair done, and luckily Zayn and Niall were the only two who were finished.

Zayn: "sure"

Zayn sped out the door and turned a few corners until he got to the back exit and found Harry sitting on a step right outside the door on his phone.

Zayn walked outside and sat down next to Harry, placing a warm hand around his torso.

Harry: "Louis I don't wanna be touched right now"

Zayn: "well too bad it's me..."

Harry shifted his head to the side and relaxed when he saw Zayn there instead.

Harry: "oh...sorry"

He leaned his head against Zayn's and sighed

Zayn: "I know you're afraid of everything right now babe, but don't freak out on anyone else. You can freak out on me if you want...but leave the boy's out okay?"

Harry: "mhm"

Zayn: "freak out on me all you want, I know just how to shut your ass up"

Harry chuckled

Zayn: "but on a serious note, this is all gonna work out"

Harry: "I hope so"

Zayn: "and it may seem overwhelming but I promise you that it's gonna feel a thousand times better when they know"

Harry stayed silent

Zayn: "and I love you"

Harry turned his head enough to catch Zayn's lips in a sweet kiss

Harry: "mmm your lips are soft"

Zayn chuckled

Zayn: "it's okay, i know you love me too"

Harry laughed

Harry: "aw someone's pouty...I love you too baby, so much"

Zayn: "on a serious note, I told them I'd come check on you and if they walk out here to find out and we're kissing...our secrets blown even sooner"

Harry: "well I wouldn't have to tell them"

Zayn sighed

Zayn: "I can do most of the talking yeah?"

Harry: "mhm"

Zayn: "I love you"

Harry: "love you too"

Zayn: "mkay, come on"

They made their way back inside and Harry apologized to Niall for being the dick that he was.

...

A few hours passed and the show was finally over. For it being their first show, it went incredibly well.

Liam: "well lads, that went amazing"

Louis: "you thinking what I'm thinking?"

Liam: "celebratory measures?"

Louis: "some sexy ones?"

Liam: "great minds think alike"

Louis leaned in to Harry's ear...

Louis: "let me relieve some of that stress when we get back baby"

Harry: "I dunno"

Louis: "Harry, we haven't gotten closer at all in the past month...I'm giving a hundred percent and you're not giving me anything."

Harry: "tonight isn't the night okay?! Today was the worst day I've had in a long time...I don't need you on my case too. please."

Louis backed up when Harry raised his voice from a whisper.

Zayn gave him a disappointed look because Harry shouldn't have taken his stress out on Louis, and they discussed that.

Harry just threw his head against the window and closed his eyes for the rest of the drive...wanting nothing more than to be completely alone.

Paul and Julian were waiting in the lobby for the boys and when they walked in they all questioned their presence.

Liam: "you guys never wait up for us"

Louis: "yeah what's going on?"

Paul: "we all need to have a very long talk"

Louis: "did something happen?"

Paul: "call it what you will, but we just need to chat about a few things"

Liam: "why don't you three have any questions?"

He turned to Niall, Harry, and Zayn.

Harry: "just cause...let's go"

Liam looked at Harry apologetically as they all followed Paul and Julian up to their room.

Julian: "do you lads want anything to drink?"

Niall: "please"

Julian threw all 5 of them a cold beer and popped two open for him and Paul as well before resuming his seat on the sofa next to him.

Harry: "I'm gonna need like eight more of these yeah?"

Julian: "quit, you're fine"

Zayn wanted to pull Harry into his lap and squeeze him. He didn't wanna let him go until he knew he was gonna be okay but, he couldn't.

At least not yet.

So many questions were going through Harry's mind as they all got situated. He sat on the edge of the couch with his elbows rested on his knees and his head looking toward the ground.

So many questions running through his brain.

What do I say?

How do I say it?

Am I gonna lose them?

I fucked up.

I wanna go home.

I just want this to be over.

Maybe I could just leave now?

Maybe Paul could tell them for us?

Fuck this.