Jealousy (z.s.)

|can't hide it|

The silence between Harry and Zayn wasn't the least bit intoxicating...it more more like suffocation.

They both sat next to each other in silence, taking long sips of their drinks and breathing in the hostility that surrounded them.

Neither of them were quite sure how to act around each other yet, and it was quite obvious.

Harry: "we can just act like we did before things got intimate"

Zayn sarcastically chuckled

Zayn: "I wish it were that easy Harry"

Harry: "why can't it be?"

Zayn: "because I dunno if you've noticed or not, but I'm obsessed with you. I am still falling so hard into those damn green eyes and I've tried to stop myself but I can't!...I can't."

Harry took a deep breath

Harry: "I um...I'm sorry"

Zayn: "that's all you ever are Harry, ever realize that sorry just doesn't cut it sometimes?!"

Zayn stood up and threw the bartender money before throwing his chair backwards and storming back off outside of the pools gate.

Probably to smoke again.

A few minutes after letting Harry cool down Niall joined him at the bar.

Harry: "did you hear?"

Niall: "the entire pool heard haz..."

Harry: "I don't know what he wants me to do? I'm just as lost as he is Ni."

Niall: "he misses you, it took everything in him to not kiss your lips Harry."

Harry: "...I dunno if I can do this Ni. I think I might have to talk to Liam and Louis."

Niall: "what do you mean?"

Harry: "I'm in love with Zayn"

Nialls eyes almost popped out of his head.

Niall: "you used the 'L' word"

Harry: "there's no other word to describe it, I love him. So fucking much...it's only been 12 hours and I can't stop looking at him and thinking about him."

Niall: "when do you wanna talk to them?"

Harry: "maybe tonight?"

Niall: "I can bring them to your room if you want, 8 o'clock okay?"

Harry nodded, a little nervous but certain this was what he wanted.

The time passed quickly, the rest of they day was spent swimming, drinking, and tanning.

Afterwards Harry and Niall went up to Harry's room, Zayn decided to get a separate room to himself for tonight's stay.

Once they were both showered and ready, Niall fetched Liam and Louis, and brought them to Harry's room.

Louis: "where's Z?"

Harry: "oh uh...I actually wanted to talk to you guys about that"

Liam: "here we go again"

Harry didn't mind Liams tone, he knew he deserved it.

Harry: "I want to make it up to you guys so much, and I'll do anything to do that...but I can't stay away from Zayn. I've tried this entire day, and it's exhausting. I need him."

Louis just took a deep breath and looked toward the ground.

Liam: "the only problem I have is that you two are gonna be up each other's asses...we're never gonna hang as a group anymore."

Harry: "I promise you that we will, we won't change anything."

Louis: "if I'm honest, I want you happy Harry...but I'm still on edge from the shit you pulled"

Harry: "I-I know...and I dunno what to do to make it up to you. You name it, I'll do it"

Louis: "I think I just need time"

Harry: "I wanna do anything I can to regain that trust, but I physically can't look and Zayn and see him as just a mate"

Liam: "take a walk in my shoes Harry"

Harry realized that Liam was going through exactly what he didn't want, and he immediately took back what he said.

Liam: "Harry it's fine, I'm working through it. Be happy, and I'll be fine"

Harry: "are you sure?"

Louis: "we both are"

Harry: "thank you guys."

They all hugged before they left the room. Harry still felt helpless in terms of making it up to them, but a huge weight was lifted off of his shoulders at the same time.

Niall: "Zayn's in room 347"

Harry looked back at Niall, curious as to how he knew that.

Niall: "I knew that's where you'd be headed next, so I did my research like a good best friend"

Harry: "truly the best, I'll be back"

Niall: "not too soon, if you know what I mean"

Harry chuckled and left for the elevator. Zayn was on an entirely different floor, 2 floors down to be exact.

When he stood outside of room 347 his heart was pounding out of his chest.

He was never this nervous around Zayn, but this time he was worried that he might not want him back.

He reluctantly knocked on the door a few times, and waited a solid 2 minutes...but no answer.

His heart sunk.

He slid his back down the door and sat on the floor of the hallway, letting silent tears slip down his face. He'd ruined the relationship that meant the most to him.

After sitting there for another ten minutes some footsteps rounded the corner.

Zayn: "H-Harry? What're you doing?"

Harry looked up from his swollen eyes at Zayn.

Harry: "I uh...I came looking for you. I just thought...I just thought you didn't wanna answer."

Zayn: "I was outside haz, I'm sorry"

Harry: "no it's cool, I was just...coming to talk I guess, but you're probably tired so I'll see you tomorrow?"

Harry stood up and wiped the tears from his cheeks.

Zayn: "you don't have to go...just come in"

Harry: "you don't have to-"

Zayn: "I want to"

Harry let a small smile creep across his lips as Zayn opened the door for him and led him into his room.

It was smaller, not as much space as the one they shared. Probably because it was meant for one person...or a couple.

Zayn sat on the bed, wanting Harry to join him, but instead Harry stood across the room, afraid of overstepping.

Zayn: "Haz, come sit...we're not strangers for fucks sake."

Harry chuckled and sat on the bed, facing Zayn entirely.