Jealousy (z.s.)

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When both pairs left for their dates, Niall stayed at Zayn's and got ready for their hangout later.

Every Friday, when they weren't busy, the boys would get together and watch a movie, play games, and drink until they didn't even remember their names.

Harry never looked forward to the drinking, he was always afraid of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time.

...

Harry and Louis were assigned to attend a movie at the local drive in for their date, and Harry wasn't looking forward to it at all.

Halfway through the movie, Louis grew bored.

Louis: "how do you like the film?"

Harry: "it's good, you?"

Louis: "I'm kinda bored since you asked"

Harry: "well what have you got in mind?"

Without warning, Louis turned Harry's face and brought their lips together in a short kiss.

Harry blushed, not because he liked it, but because of the pure guilt and embarrassment he felt when it happened.

Louis: "sorry you just looked so kissable"

Harry: "oh, no worries, we should be heading back now"

Louis: "but the movie isn't over"

Harry: "I feel bad for keeping Niall waiting though"

Louis: "sure then, let's go"

They packed up their blankets and everything else that occupied the trunk of the car before pulling out of the gravel based lot and driving back to Zayn's flat.

...

Liam and Zayn were set to have a nice dinner at a fancy Italian restaurant called "ginos italiano".

Zayn couldn't stop thinking about Harry.

Did he like him? Does that make him gay? Or Bi? What does this mean for them? And so on, and so forth.

Liam: "earth to zayn?"

Zayn snapped out of his thoughts and refocused his attention on Liam alone.

Zayn: "sorry, I was just admiring the...the design inside of this place, it's breathtaking"

Liam: "yeah, really nice isn't it?"

Zayn: "for sure"

Liam: "so I have a quick question"

Zayn: "what's up?"

Liam: "are we actually gonna pretend or are we gonna try things out between us?"

Zayn: "what're you implying?"

Liam: "maybe we should try to get to know each other in that way"

Zayn: "I dunno, I feel like this is forced and I don't like that feeling"

Liam: "but we can move on our own terms Z"

Zayn: "give me some time to think okay?"

Liam: "sure, that's better than a no"

Shortly after they finished eating they left to join the other lads back at Zayn's flat.

...

When Zayn and Liam walked in Harry, Niall, and Louis were all on separate pieces of furniture trying their very best to gain solitude.

But right when Zayn came in, Harry shot him a look and Zayn knew right away that his conspiracies were true. So he sat right next to Harry on the couch and placed a playful arm around his shoulders, causing the hairs to stand up along his arms and his legs.

Zayn: "so how was your date Lou?"

Louis: "it went really well, definitely better than I expected"

Louis winked at Harry, causing Zayn to become a tad bit jealous. What actually happened during their date?

But he stopped himself. He didn't even know if Harry was actually fantasizing about him or a completely different person. Who knew?

He could not get jealous. Not now.

Harry: "yeah it was cool"

But Zayn's energy shifted when he realized how uncomfortable Harry looked with himself and the situation, like he was hiding something important.

When it was time for Zayn to hold a smoke break, Harry joined him outside the front door on the steps.

Zayn: "why do you seem so uncomfortable around Louis?"

Harry shrugged even though he knew exactly why.

Zayn: "was the date that bad?"

Harry: "no...it was nice"

Zayn: "don't lie to me"

Harry: "fine, I feel disgusting and everything that happened felt so wrong."

Zayn: "did you guys fuck or something?"

Harry: "no Z, we didn't"

Zayn: "then why do you look so guilty?"

Harry: "he kissed me...and it felt so fucking wrong. I didn't know what to do or what to say. It felt so weird and uncomfortable."

Zayn: "I mean, why didn't you like it?"

Harry: "because I'm completely infatuated with someone else, and whenever I have time to think...they're the first person to pop into my head."

Zayn: "I think we need to start being more honest with each other Harry"

Harry looked confused and directed his gaze toward Zayn's eyes.

Harry: "what do you mean?"

Zayn: "I know you have feelings for me"

Harry: "nobody knew! how did you- who told you?!"

Zayn: "nobody told me, it's kinda obvious"

Harry: "fuck"

Zayn threw his cigarette bud off the balcony and placed a soothing hand on Harry's back.

Zayn: "it's okay"

Harry: "but this is the thing, now I know that you don't feel the same"

Zayn: "did I say that?"

Harry hesitated

Harry: "no...I guess not"

Zayn: "exactly. Harry I get jealous over you all the time. I hide it well because I don't wanna come out as gay or bi...but maybe I am. And at this point, if it's leading me in your direction than I'm happy to accept it."

Harry: "but what about all this publicity shit?"

Zayn: "I dunno, it's a huge obstacle. Liam already asked me if we could actually explore our sexual relationship"

Harry's eyes shot flames

Harry: "what?!"

Zayn: "relax, I told him I'd think about it because I didn't wanna seem totally uninterested."

Harry: "are you?"

Zayn: "am I what?"

Harry: "gonna explore with him?"

Zayn: "I dunno yet"

Harry pouted

Zayn: "that doesn't mean that everything I just told you is fake Harry, okay?"

Harry: "mhm"

Zayn: "we'd better head inside before they start thinking we jumped off"

Harry nodded, still sort of upset about the night he just had.