"this is the best date we've EVER been on!" mattia said as they sat on the hood of his car. he had his arm around me and pulled me closer. i smiled feeling like the happiest girl in the world, but the feeling instantly went away when i remembered that i had to tell him...
"tia we need to talk about something.." i said as i removed his arm from around me. i put his hands in mine and held back my tears.
"yeah what is?" he said smiling. i couldn't do it. i couldn't tell him. not yet...
"i... i think this date is the best one we've ever had as well." i said. he smiled a soft smile and pulled me in for a kiss. my lips met his and my stomach filled up with butterflies. i pulled away and rested my head on his chest.
"hey we should pack everything up and get going. it's getting late. when we get to my place, we can watch movies and sleep nakeddddd." he said with a big smile on his face and doing a cute head bop at the end. i let out a laugh and looked at him crazy.
i wanted to tell him.. but i wanted this to last for a lifetime. i couldn't ruin this perfect moment.
we arrived at his house and i greeted his parents. i stayed and talked with them for a while until mattia led me to his room.
he turned his led lights to a really low purple. then he started a movie. we got comfortable and cuddled up close together. i held on tight knowing that this may be my last time doing this in a while.
"i am so glad that you're back from tour. i didn't think i could go on without you. good thing you'll be here for another year!" he said and rested his head on my lap. i just sat there. i didn't realize i was crying until mattia said something.
"(y/n) what's wrong?!" he said. he sat up and wiped my tears and pulled me closer.
"mattia- i-i'm sorry i didn't tell you right away..."
"tell me what?"
"i'm leaving for tour again.. tonight.." he stopped touching me and sat there. i could tell he was hurt but he didn't say anything.
"tia..."
"you JUST got back..." he said looking at me. i saw that he was now crying. his eyes were red.
"i know... but i'll only be gone for three months.. you know how important this is to me.."
"it's just... I JUST got you back and you're leaving again? i don't wanna lose you again..." his voice cracked and more tears fell from his eyes.
"we can still call. and i have shows here in jersey... i can visit you.."
"no (y/n) it's not the same." we both sat there quietly.
"what time do you have to be on the bus tonight?" he broke the silence, and asked me.
"1 AM." i said. he stared at me.
"come here." i moved closer to him and he held me tight. we sat like that for a while.
we finished the movie and then he drove me to my house. i showered and got dressed. then he drove me to my stop.
"(y/n)" he was about to cry again. i could tell. "i'm- uh- i'm gonna miss you."
"i'm gonna miss you too tia." i pulled him into a hug.
"(Y/N) WE GOTTA GO!" i heard my band member yell.
"i'll call you every night. please stay safe." he said.
"i will." i mumbled. we hugged one last time. then i walked away.
i looked back one more time.
then left.
this shit cringe asl. i'm sorry💀💀💀
