STRUGGLE- the SILENT Story Of Salesgirl

CHAPTER - 1

"Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If we were to go through our life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Give every opportunity a chance, leave no room for regrets"

"No....I want to go there" I was pleading to my own family.

Mummy- "I told no means no..there is no future,why don't you understand?" She is completely unhappy with my decision,she is very angry and yelling at me" You are not a kid, at least understand none of your sisters has done this,why you are forcing yourself to be in danger?" this time she raised her voice and I got scared

Me- "Maa.....please change your point of view, I am going there for a reason, I am looking forward for my career,I am not going to compromise my career for anyone and for the sake of completing all of your wishes, I am not made for handling kitchen and cooking food for my husband,I want to become successful person..and I will be successful one day" I was having dream in my eyes.i want to get out of this normal life and... this job will only give me the life which I want,at least it can give start to my career,ideally sitting at home and doing nothing was not my forte.but for getting this job I need to make first my family understand,I have to do something.

I calmed myself and told to my mom
"Maa...please let me do this job for six month.just give me chance to prove myself,if I didn't find any career here,I will leave this job and i will do some ordinary job whichever you like,I will not utter a single word,but as of now please....maa.... please...let me do this..pleasssseee..."
I watched her with my puppy eyes. puppy eyes are my last and most effective weapon for any fights.and it worked like always.

Mom- "but you are very young,I can't take risk on your security,roaming here and there and going door to door,this job is not made for girls, think about your safety.beta, i am not your enemy i am just concerned about your security"I know she has a point. but I can't get convinced I tried to explain her with my calm voice.

"see maa...I will take care of myself, I am giving you my guarantee nothing will happen to me.i promise.
It's just a matter of six month mom,rest we will decide later,let me go there please."I know she is not getting convinced,but her tension face is being normal now.her shoulders are getting relaxed slowly slowly. After watching her relaxed I added some more points.

"I know mom,you are my well wisher, you will never want me to get in trouble but mumma you think, in our city, girls are safe and so many girls are doing job.I am having a female team leader who will teach me. I will be here only in same city.every night I will come to home. .there is no need to worry.i will be here, around you"

Finally with half heatedly she agreed with her special face of EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL she told, "ohk....as usual you will do what you like".

I hugged her with full of joy. But I know she is not at all happy,from the mothers point of view she is right.all mother seeking for the safety of her child,she is doing the same thing.i am not angry with her but I have to look for my future too..I am sorry mom if I hurting you but I have taken this step for my career which will lead me towards the success.
I am sure one day I will give her a lavish life,which she deserves.

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Late night starring at the ceiling and thinking about life is always being one of my Favorite hobby.yelling and shouting on my parents will always end up with a tear in my eyes,I hate being served like a normal girl,I have a unique perspective towards life..it hurts when I am behaving with them so disrespectfully.i will tell sorry morning for my behavior.

After thinking so much I realized if I want to continue this job.i need to fight every day with myself and with others..and today was just a inauguration of everything the journey has started now.it won't be easy.i have to be ready for all kind of hurdles.

This all happened after 2 days of joining my new job.when I went for the Sales job.which was unexpected for my family.even some days back,it was unexpected for me as well because I always dreamed to became a successful person in IT Field, but situations has changed a lot,which lead me to choose sales field. Which was unexpected turn of my life which changed everything.god only knows what was going to happen with my career,may be he is choosing destiny for me.showing the pathway.i hope whatever the dreams i have seen it will get fulfill by this job.i know only one thing if i have started walking on this path, i will surely reach to the end.

I was in my teenage when this all has started,I never enjoyed teenager's life, you know like partying, doing night out,watching movies with friends, exploring the beauty of the world. I always being the most innocent and sincere student of all the time, I never bunk my lectures,never went for movie,never went to party,never done night outs.
I doesn't belong from high class family,I came from the very normal middle class family,I always learnt to be responsible,trust worthy and hardworking,being from normal middle class family is itself a struggle for getting everything, people always used to teach us compromise and sacrifice with everything which we want. Because of this lessons none of my sister has went to college,so sticking in comparison was my the biggest problem  but luckily I was having good results in studies so I got a chance to complete my education, after passing my ssc with distinction, I was wanting to go for my higher studies with my friends,but as life is never easy to achieve anything,and god is having his own plans for our life., due to some family situations and looking for early income I directly joined one diploma collage in IT.which was very new to me.i never heard Information technology before joining it.

When I was in diploma college I was very much sure to complete my graduation in IT field,but due to the circumstances of my family I dropped the idea to do complete my graduation and choose to do job,

That time job was only solution for me to help my family financially .my father was completely unable to complete our needs which was leading situation worst day by day. Then I changed my goal from graduation to job, one of my friend suggest me to go for external graduation,which can help me for the further studies as well as while doing job I can resolve financial issues of my family,then I became more focused to complete diploma and to start my life ahead.

In Diploma collage I was repeating my schedule of being the most innocent and sincere student.talking with everything was my hobby.which helped me lot for diverting my mind from family issues to real life.i was very happy in my study period.but that happiness also lasted only for 3 years.i was having en ought friends. some of them are still very close to my heart and being in touch with them always makes me happy and helps me to divert my focus from problems.

After completing my diploma,I started searching for job in my field, first as I was enjoying everything. Whatever I learnt in my field,I tried everything,whatever I needed for getting my job. That was the time when I was not that much confident enough to face anyone.i was getting nervous in all my interviews. I went for so many interviews but due to some reason I was getting rejected everywhere,None of the company was interested to hire me,I tried so many ways to search job.i was searching job through all social media sites,news paper, references..but it was all going waste after attending the face to face interview.

I was very disappointed and getting mental trauma.Facing rejection was one of the most scariest part of my life,It was my weakness.I have started loosing trust on myself,.i started feeling worst day by day.my nature was changing, I was being unfair towards myself and my family,I was doubting on my talent,my skills which started affecting on my family life also .i was getting angry on everyone.it was some strange feeling.i have started being introvert, I was loosing control on my emotions,due to that I started having issues of mood swings,which was creating negative impact on my life. There were very less hope for me to get job in IT.

Then it was a day when one incident changed everything.it was the sunlight in my life. It was the thing which was actually unexpected for me.