Sander Sides One Shots (requests closed/on hiatus)

I can't lose him...please

AU/Prompt: dunno, human au i guess??

Ship(s): logan x remus / intrulogical

Requested by: no one/me

Warnings: blood, guns, death, angst

His gun had gone off next to my head. The sound was excruciating; the ringing in my ears was intense and I couldn't focus on anything.

"Re..." Logan gasped behind me.

I spun around, only to find Logan in a blood-stained shirt. His hands were red as he kept pressure on his wound.

At that moment everything froze, everything but time. I couldn't function, my mind froze. I was paralysed. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to save Logan. He was always the smart one in our relationship and I was always the reckless idiot and now Logan's paying the price.

He began to fall, almost instinctively, I caught him and held him close to my chest as I laid him on the floor.

"Tell me what to do... Tell me how to save you" I begged, my voice choking but I tried to hide it. I needed to stay strong for John.

I did as instructed: I dialled 911 while I kept pressure on the wound. I threw the phone away and tried to keep him awake. I asked him random questions, but it wasn't working. He kept closing his eyes. The blood loss was too much.

My cheeks were damp as I continued to keep pressure on the wound. I could hear the sirens in the distance but they wouldn't get here in time.

I was going to lose him. I can't lose him. He is the only good thing in my fucked up life. I can't lose my best friend...my only love...

"Lo, please...please don't leave me... I can't...I can't be without you"

His closed his eyes, and wouldn't open them again, no matter how many times I begged.

I panicked. The tears in my eyes obstructed my vision. I fumbled around his wrist trying to find a pulse. It was faint at first, then in a blink of an eye... it was gone.

I hate myself. I should've told him how I felt. I was being childish, I played games. Never telling him the truth. Now it's too late.

He's gone and I never told him. I never got to tell him that...

"I love you"

sorry for the small bit of angst but I'm not feeling great so let there be angst! i probably just need to sleep...

thanks for reading and comment if you have any requests

~remi