Naruto Charaters x Reader One-Shots

"I Can't Sleep"- Sasuke x Reader Part 3

(Y/N) P.O.V

Slowly I opened my eye. I was confused... 

'Why was I sleeping? If my memory served me correctly... Oh no...'

Tears started to form in my eyes as realization swept over. It was a dream. All that I just experienced was nothing but a dream... or should I say nightmare? It was almost as if it was taunting me, showing me what I could never have.

What started off as a small tears slowly turned into sniffle which eventually evolved into an ugly sob. All that I have been bearing over these many months was coming out. All the anxiety... sadness... loneliness... It all was being released in my sobs.

However the sobs stopped abruptly. Panic washed over me as  I looked over to the opposite side of the bed. He was not there... was I that surprised? 

'Why did I even think he'd be there? When was the last time he actually slept next to me?'

Feeling stupid I turned away from the opposite side of the bed. Seeing that I was fully awake, I made the grand decision to get ready for the day. Swinging my legs over the side of the bed, I got up and shuffled over to the dresser. Right above the dress was mirror. 

'What an awful place to have a mirror.' 

Staring back at me was the same person that I have become well aquatinted with over time. They had disheveled (H/C) hair that looked like it hadn't been brushed in ages. The reddest and puffiest eyes you will ever see, and to accompany them dark rings under them. And to tie the whole look together was the palest skin that could rival that of a vampire. 

Gazing at my reflection a million thoughts were running through my head.

'When did I become like this?'

'Why do I let myself be treated this way?'

'What happened to the once strong woman I knew?'

'When did I become such a pussy?'

'Damn... I really need to go to a spa...'

'Why don't I just leave?'

The last thought brought me to a halt. Why didn't I just leave? All of my problems would be solved... (especially my current appearance...) I could go back to Konoha, go see my friends and family, go back to working at my families (Business Place), go be able to live life to the fullest... go back to being able to smile again... The more I reasoned with my self, the more appealing the idea sounded. There was only one setback... him.

I love Sasuke with all my heart. He was the only reason why my life changed so drastically to begin with, and not for the better I might add. Would leaving him now prove that all this struggle was futile? Would all my efforts be in vain? Would he even care?

The last thought scares me. He was so invested in getting stronger... getting his revenge... getting what he wanted. He has proven to me countless of time that I was just a second thought to him, while he was my first. If he didn't care for me... why should I care for him? Why don't I just leave now... it wouldn't be like he would even notice.

With this verdict in my mind, I set to work. I started off by getting dressed (my original plan, I liked it so I kept it,) next thing was to find a bag. Looking around the room I was able to find one under the bed. Quickly snatching it up I started to shovel in my clothes into. After this I would go and find food-