Love, Beth

Chapter Five

Dear Kate,

School was hella boring! Of course, you made it better. Classes without you were dull and the only things I looked forward to were walking you to class, hanging out during lunch, skipping classes to be with you, and walking to and from school with you every day. Damn, okay, I looked forward to a lot of things. And they all revolved around you. Huh.

Hanging out with you was always so much fun. I'd always joke around, trying my best to hear your laugh or, at the very least, see your beautiful smile. We would always hang out, rain or shine... We were inseparable... We were...

Remember when we danced in the rain together on our way home from school? That was so much fun. We stumbled into my house, completely soaked and laughing our asses off. We were freezing! After, we changed into some pajamas and cuddled up on the couch, watching Disney movies. A couple of times, we'd fall asleep like that.

You'd always fall asleep first at sleepovers. And it was always while cuddled up to me. You'd tire yourself out from Just Dance and collapse into my arms. It was so adorable. Damn, I miss it. I'd always make sure a blanket was over you and I'd cuddle you in closer.

Graduation... that was an interesting day. I was so nervous to walk across the stage so you talked to me and calmed me down. It meant a lot, and it wasn't as bad as I'd thought. After the dull speeches, and watching everyone walk across the stage, we took some pictures and you fucking dfkfhjrdkjr kissed me fkjghjkgre on the cheek eifjeriojgre. It was likely platonic, but holy shit. I couldn't stop smiling for the rest of the day. That meant a lot and I'm smiling just thinking about it.We held hands for the rest of the time there... I miss that.

After that, we went to a small party with some friends. Someone brought alcohol and you drank quite a bit. We ended up singing our favourite songs, being dumb and goofy... I think it was during one karaoke song that I realized I was in love with you... Damn... which song was it?? I think it was probably when you were singing Fuckin' Perfect, by P!nk, screaming the lyrics in between laughs. You smiled at me the entire time. Your laugh was beautiful. Your eyes were bright and joyful, filling with tears from laughing too much. Your smile was flawless.

I remember singing Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars to you. That was fun. You got super drunk though. You were stumbling around and slurring all your words. You kept cuddling up to me, kissing me on the cheek, caressing my face... it was super cute but I couldn't help but be concerned. You were really drunk.

I personally decided to not drink anything since I wanted to take care of you. You ended up falling asleep in my lap on the couch. God, you were so adorable. The party wasn't at either of our houses so I decided to take you to my place since I knew your parents wouldn't be too happy about you coming home drunk. I walked you to the car and took you to my place where you slept in my bed. I slept on the floor, in a pile of blankets.

In the morning, I made you a pancake breakfast and let you change into some of my clothes. I don't think you ever ended up returning those, and I'm pretty sure you ended up wearing them more than once, but I don't mind. You looked cute in my clothes. I also made sure you drank a lot of water. You were hungover and I had to do some research on how to help with that. I didn't mind taking care of you though. You're the mom friend so I was used to it being the other way around but taking care of you made me appreciate everything you did for me even more.

You did so much for me. Thank you. It means a lot and I don't think I ever told you how much you meant to me. I should've. Every day. You meant the world to me. Hell, you still do.

Love, Beth